Life = Stagnant

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imported_miley_fan

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:mfinger: So my life really hasn't started yet. I'm remaining stagnant in the armpit of the central valley of California in the SUMMER. I have no job (yet) I only have one more semester of my pointless, wasted education/prison/. My boyfriend moved to San Francisco with no phone to call me. I have to stay here in FRESNO-aka- the entrapment of doom until i graduate, get my license, find a job - save money to move to SF.

My mother just got mad at me for buying food when theres CRACKERS and WATER to eat. I've just had the worst "asain" noodles from a box and i'm probably going to die of a stomach ulcer now. Fresno is so horrible I took pictures in the dark...in my bathroom....for an hour yesterday and the day before a friend and I amused ourselves by throwing water into the air and slapping it in the pool. I have insomnia...its hot....no one will help me do anything. I dont have any clothes. My horrible sister is getting married and is showered with money, laptop, a car when she drops out of school...and no one will buy me FOOD. If you have no car in Fresno, you die.
 
I'm sorry for being a dick Fresno. You're at that point in life where everything fucking sucks. I used to hate where I lived, but after a couple of years, I grew to like it, I realized why people wanted to live there. As for your love-loss, that fuckin sucks. But you're young...
 
Very very accurate BS Jack, I am young which is the only thing that gives me hope that i still have time to change in order not to become what i see around me....fuckers :( ::glare::
 
Well, you can't wallow in the shit. How much is a bus ticket to San Fran?
It can't be more than one week's pay at the Circle K? Splitsville.
 
Im probably going to go this weekend if i can shoot the OCD out of my mother....if not ill wallow again...
his school starts june 20th (hes a director/cinematographer) so he will be busy a lot...
 
So your life's a bit boring....

Its odd that in other places of the world people cant seem to have a moment alone, or without crisis.

Cheer up, and FIND something to do. I live in the same podunk kind of town you do, and yeah, its boring and such, but Im making the best of it. Take up a hobby, a productive one, go out and find a job, get money, get away from the stinkin town.

Everything is not just going to come to you, you have to find it. /der. :oogle:
 
I have SOME things that i do...my life isnt completely insignificant and futile...
But you are right....must work for these things ::der:: i just feel very ungrounded. I feel that if im not attaining an education for the career i want to have im going no where, if im not with the one i love im going to lose him, if i cant surpass I will be devoured
 
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