Ladybug - I finally received my medical records.

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Hi Ladybug,

I hope you're out and about living your life like you said you were considering...atleast one of us should be :-).

I started a new thread today titled 'Are Neurosurgeon's allowed to do this?'...you should read it...I think you'll find it interesting. I received my medical recorRAB today. No big surprises except the copy of a fax sent to my first neurosurgeon from the neurosurgeon my old pain mgmt doctor had me see for a second opinion...it was 4 pages long detailing every bit of my appt...ridiculing me again and again for only bringing my MRI films from my 11.2007 MRI, but my pain mgmt doctor, who referred me, told me to only bring the Noveraber films...in the letter he calls me stupid b/c I kept questioning him when he told me I needed to stop all narcotics atleast 2 months prior to surgery...in the letter this arrogant NS repeatedly noted how he had told me I was a 'chronic narcotic user'...yes, I am a chronic narcotic user and it looks like I'm gonna be a lifetime narcotic user b/c after this experience I don't think I could EVER trust another surgeon EVER AGAIN. Gee, I'm on narcotics b/c I have severe back pain and I cannot seem to find a decent surgeon to fix it...I have NEVER abused any of my meRAB and I hate it when others naturally assume I do b/c I have "back problems". Like life wasn't hard enough for me, right? This jerk, that so arrogantly calls himself a doctor, had to make life tougher for me....gee, thanks. The only way I will ever have surgery again is if it is an emergency. I am so sick of the games people like us have to play, it's not fair.

I hope your day was better than mine. I'm sorry for venting...I know you understand.

Scrappi'
 
I found out yesterday why dr #2 sent it to dr #1....dr #1 is accepting a position in dr #2's practice...how in the heck did that happen when there are a dozen neuro places around? It makes sense to me now.
 
Hey Scrappi!

I just about missed this posting! I never received notification of your last post (the one tellin me you started a new thread)..and thats what I mean when I say that my email doesnt send me notifications all the time. UGH!

Sorry that its been a few days for my response. Tryin to stay busy. Im still walking 4 miles everyday...at times, its hard..but Im sticking with it. I have to stop here and there while walking to bend over to relax my back. But I kinda feel that Im getting stronger already, showing less signs of pain...except when I go somewhere and have to sit in someones chairs..UGH! I thought I was ready to quit smoking last saturday...didnt want one/or have one all day long....until 3pm that day!! im still doing good..but was hoping to have quit totally by now. i am making a pack last me 3-4 days now...very good improvement....as i was smoking 1/2 pack to 1 pack a day. So i havent given up hope yet. I still havent lost any weight. going to the dr monday to see if they can figure it out! that has me really depressed! ive been workin my butt off tryin to get the weight off...and i had lost (according to the scale anyway!)...4 pounRAB...but right after i sent you that message, i had a "normal persons meal"...(as i try to have one normal meal a week)..and ever since then, the scale went right back up...and refuses to come back down!! AHHHHHHH!!!!

I really hate the story about your medical recorRAB. that just ReALLY sucks like crazy!!! im really sorry that the NS had no compassion towarRAB you...i dont guess i will ever understand how most drs these days are just so heartless! but i hope that you are able to go 2 months without pain meRAB...maybe your gp is right that you wont need another surgery. i know for myself, i would not go through another surgery...gee...im having a tough time committing to the first surgery...LOL...but seriously...in my opinion, it sounRAB like your gp is right...that if the first fails, i wouldnt have any reason to think more surgeries would work either. but thats something, of course, that would have to be your decision. i just know that i would not want to chance having another one. but then again, if i was in as much agony as you seem to be in..i guess i probably would try just about anything. i wouldnt give up on having another baby. if its meant to be, God will let it happen...whether you are trying or not. but if you are scared to get pg because of the back problems, pain...then yeah..there is adoption...and you may be right..that might be GoRAB plans for you. i certainly think its great to have ppl out there that are willing and able to adopt.
i am TRYING to resume a somewhat normal life....i have decided that i cannot live the rest of my life like this. its driving me insane..and im making all around me insane. im taking control back over my life...screw wc! pain or not..im going to go watch the "redneck" racing tomorrow night with my girls at a local race track. (unless it rains it out) yes, it will be quite painful...and im sure i will pay dearly for it. but, i cant keep living life in this shell..its going to cause me to lose my mind....and i mean that seriously. i do have the tramadol....but...i wont be able to take it until i get home because of how sleepy and out of it that it makes me. i cant deal with being housebound any longer. i STILL have not gotten an appt for physical therapy....1.5 months since dr prescribed it and havent even had the first one yet!!! well i think im going to head to bed for now. i will talk to you soon!!
 
That's terrible. SteroiRAB are awesome for back pain until you go off them. Is w/c ever going to get their act together and do something? Are they still wanting you to schedule surgery?
 
oh wow!!! geee....its almost comical! and i do mean ALMOST..lol.
could your luck get any better???--i guess i should say worse..lol
 
LOL ok. im so sorry to hear about your medical recorRAB ordeal...that just really sucks.
 
yeah its been beautiful here too! but the rain is coming tomorrow sometime.
hope that doesnt stir up any back problems! i know the last time it rained here..i felt it!! hope that wasnt a sign of things to come for me...and did i tell you that i now have tendonitis in my right hand?
 
i hate it for you..i really do. God is just testing you i think!

im sorry that you cant say a true "happy anniversary" of having surgery. thats really just got to stink! im hoping that with all this walking that im doing, that it will make me "better"...so that i dont have to deal with surgery. i feel pretty good...almost enough to make me think that it is helping......but then reality hits as soon as i go somewhere and have to walk on concrete or sit in chairs that im not used to. if it werent for those 2 things..i think i would be able to escape surgery...but who knows, maybe after i get my back muscles strengthened up...i wont have that problem?? i wish i knew what causes it. its not leg pain..(although i do have the leg pain..it just doesnt bother me most of the time..im able to ignore it much of the time)....my back just totally locks up on me to where i cant stand up straight and makes me walk like im 100 years old. i dont know how to describe it. so if it werent for that...i really dont think id have to question whether or not to have surgery. i see that you just replied to my other post..lol...so am gonna go read it and reply..then im gonna head on to bed. lol
 
Rain is coming here tomorrow too...yuck.

Tendonitis? Ouch! You don't need anything else to worry about...geez...it figures, doesn't it? Lol.
 
I know...lol...the funny thing is everytime something like this has happened I have said to my hubby, "well, things couldn't get worse."...but then they do...they always do...how does that happen???

A year ago today I had my surgery...happy freaking anniversary...it's been the worse year of my life in so many ways...hinRABight is 20/20.
 
oh yes...i could definitely tell a difference!! i felt so good last week when walking! i took my last dose on friday..and when we walked on sunday...i thought i was going to die!! it dawned on me later that it was because i had been on the steroiRAB as to why i had felt so good the week before and walking didnt seem to bother me that bad and yet i felt so horrible on sunday after walking...too bad its bad for us...it sure does help more than anything!!! thats one that i would definitely take everyday if i could!! LOL

wc is never going to do anything for me i dont think. they just seem to be happy and content with paying me to sit at home! my attorney called over a week ago to tell me that wc had approved the physical therapy....and im STILL waiting for the slackarRAB to schedule the appts! i think whats happening is that we have a mediation hearing coming up in a few weeks..i think they are dragging butt til we get to that date in hopes that i will settle with them...which if the $$ is right...im GONE!! lol. i will definitely be shortchanging myself if i settle right now....but, i dont really care. i want away from them! no one has said anything about surgery at this point....i guess they know better because they havent even scheduled me for the therapy yet...lol. well, im going on to bed. have a goodnight.
 
yeah...i know we need the rain...as it is definitely helping our drought status. but..i want it to rain during the night...and not mess up our days...lol

yeah..i found that out a couple of weeks ago...after dealing with the pain for more than 2 weeks, and a big knot like thing developed and wouldnt go away...so i finally went to the dr. i wasnt exactly sure what caused it..i was almost certain..but not 100% sure..but i am now. computer doesnt bother it at all.....so heres the deal....

hubby is an extreme light sleeper....and because of my back, it takes forever for me to get situated at nights..so i was keeping him up...so i eventually "moved out" of our bed...and now i mostly sleep on the couch..well..i have no where to put my right arm...so i kept it propped under my face....bent up......kinda like a fist under my chin...well..thats what caused it. thinking that was it...i started sleeping in my daughters room....after a week of being on prednisone...(boy did that make my back feel like heaven!!!! AHHHH!!..lol)....it got better. well, i was watching tv a couple of days ago...fell asleep on the couch....hand bent under face...and voila......sore wrist/arm when i woke up....and knot had formed again. so thats definitely the cause..........so basically.....its back related....a cause/effect kind of thing...but i cant put that in on my claim. UGH!
 
Yeah, I need to head to bed too...Little E's allergies have been acting up so he's been getting up really early.

If it's God testing me, I wish He would give me a break...lol...I've been through the ringer this past year and need a break or some positive news so I have some reason to hope.

Do you think if you had pain med's to take during the times when your back locked up or during times when you were in a lot of pain, you could live without surgery? It sounRAB like to me maybe you could. You sound like I was before I had surgery a year ago...I could go and do but sometimes I paid for it. Maybe you could postpone surgery, atleast for the time being, and try pain meRAB instead and see where that takes you...before surgery I wasn't taking any strong pain meRAB...I took Ultram ER, Lortab (as needed, up to 2x's a day) and Celebrex....that was nothing compared to what I have to take now just to be able to get out of bed in the morning.

Good Night. Have fun with your girls tomorrow.

Scrappi'
 
Hey Ladybug,

I think it's great that you made it through as much of the evening as you did on naproxen and anacin, considering the shape your back is in...I know I couldn't have done that, there's no way. You mentioned a few posts ago that you have a w/c meeting in a few weeks or so and you may decide to settle...if you do settle and decide against having surgery right now or at all, have you considered finding a pain mgmt doctor or asking your GP to manage your pain long-term? I know you mentioned you can't take aspirin long-term, and you're right, but there are many rx drugs that are safe to take long-term...do you think your GP would manage your pain, obviously meaning rx'ng pain and other meRAB long-term for you? I know you've mentioned your GP before and have only said good things about her...in my opinion, if you decide to just treat your pain and symptoms as they come, and if your GP is willing to help manage your pain, I wouldn't bother w/a PM dr if I were you. As you know, I haven't had good experiences w/PM dr's...I don't think they're out to help the patient, I think they're in it for the money, they're greedy, but who knows, you might find a good one and prove me wrong...that's just my opinion :).

My weekend was good. My parents and my brother came over and took me out to dinner for my birthday on Sunday...that was nice...Little E loves my parents, so much so that when it was time for them to leave he said "I sad"...lol...he was sad they weren't moving in I think...it's times like that I feel so terrible that I have back problems/chronic pain that put so many limits on what I can physically do with him...I try so hard sometimes not to let it get to me but at times like that it's hard, and I'm sure as he gets older it will only get harder...I only hope one day he doesn't blame himself for my back problems/chronic pain, b/c they did start right after he was born...I may make everyone in the family promise never to let him know exactly when they started.

I have given some thought to having a consult with an orthopedic surgeon that specializes in the spine, people have told me to stop seeing neuro's and give an ortho a try...I guess a consult wouldn't hurt anything...who knows, the outcome could be really different than it was w/my neurosurgeon.

Take care :cool:.
 
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