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Nicci57. Well its not that my frienRAB even cared that I stopped drinking cold turkey style. I always made them go out drinking so I wouldn't look bad going out drinking by myself. Most of my frienRAB rarely drink at all and when it came to the time of going overboard they just didn't want to drink with me anymore because things have happened. In that point, over time I was told lately I get moody and violent when I'm drunk around my frienRAB, some point I even turn on them and get physical. I beat my friend down once and being a real man he never once struck back. he took the blows and told me he knew it wasn't me and that he didn't want to hurt me incase i got mad while sobered. Nicci57 that must of been scary to think about. Being picked up by strangers, god knows what they could have done to you since you were blacking out. 23 eh? I'm 24. I'm not going to lie though, even at home I'd have a few drinks while playing X box live because it was fun, I never got in trouble or too drunk at home, I was smart at home but then when it comes to going out and drinking while being social and laughing and chatting away with frienRAB instead of being yelled at for talking at work, it just goes over board, Like Iwas suppose to go to a movie that day. Heck, I even bought my ticket in advance as a promise I wouldn't get too drunk, but then that fell through, thinking I was still the way I use to be when I was 20... .where I could down so many and be fine... I drank my face off and refused to leave the bar to sit in a movie theater. heck I know if I were to go to that movie while hammered no one would be able to keep my mouth shut and i'd be removed. Once I'm drunk I can't shut up. thats because I'm a shy, quiet type of person but when I get drunk. you can't shut me up. Last summer, I had a friend stay a week and we got smashed every day. To the point where it was time for bed.... we stayed up till 2 in the morning drinking and playing video games.... I was still yapping my gums out from 2am till 5am in the morning in the bedroom while my friend layed on the floor listening. Of course the hangovers were killer but I didn't seem to care.
I still try hard to talk while sobered. I've been sobered for about 2 weeks now, it's hard though, I thought I could deal with it but yesterday work was rough and of course before I wanted help whenever work was rough I would want a drink after work, go to the LCBO, pick up a mickey and have a few drinks. Of course I swore I would never touch a sip of alcohol, it was starting problems and everytime i think about it I remind myself of the bad things that would happen if I started to drink and got drunk. Now I will admit , not everytime would I be stupid or aggressive, there have been times where I had a blast and only had a few drinks (3) and I'd stop and the parents would be happy to see me walk in the door fine, but then of course there were times where I was like "to hell with them! its my life! I choose!" then i'd get wasted then I'd stagger into the door and I'd get yelled at.
Anyways. I' m going to my next meeting tonight at 8pm. is it strange to say that I'm looking forward to it? Anyways I hope you are all doing your best like I am to stay sober. though sometimes I think about drinking still, I never go over to pick stuff up, I walk by the LCBO..... go figure eh? The LCBO is in my middle travels to and from work. I get off a bus and there it is sitting there staring at me LOL
but I walk to my next bus not looking at it. God bless you all. 
God bless you too Nicci57
I still try hard to talk while sobered. I've been sobered for about 2 weeks now, it's hard though, I thought I could deal with it but yesterday work was rough and of course before I wanted help whenever work was rough I would want a drink after work, go to the LCBO, pick up a mickey and have a few drinks. Of course I swore I would never touch a sip of alcohol, it was starting problems and everytime i think about it I remind myself of the bad things that would happen if I started to drink and got drunk. Now I will admit , not everytime would I be stupid or aggressive, there have been times where I had a blast and only had a few drinks (3) and I'd stop and the parents would be happy to see me walk in the door fine, but then of course there were times where I was like "to hell with them! its my life! I choose!" then i'd get wasted then I'd stagger into the door and I'd get yelled at.
Anyways. I' m going to my next meeting tonight at 8pm. is it strange to say that I'm looking forward to it? Anyways I hope you are all doing your best like I am to stay sober. though sometimes I think about drinking still, I never go over to pick stuff up, I walk by the LCBO..... go figure eh? The LCBO is in my middle travels to and from work. I get off a bus and there it is sitting there staring at me LOL
but I walk to my next bus not looking at it. God bless you all. God bless you too Nicci57