It's been 9 years and it's still haunting me, what should I do?

Momma Kristi

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I had a boyfriend for 6 months (in 2002) and fell head-over-heels in love with him (it was mutual). We were thinking about getting married! During the course of our dating, I would spend weekends with him and his friends- hanging out and partying. My boyfriend dumped me- due to his severe handicap and not being able to provide for me.

About 3 months later of being completely devastated, his friend called me up and wanted to start hanging out with me. And I accepted! So, we started "dating." He took me out to dinner, dancing, etc.- he was a real gentleman. But I felt akward (because he was a close friend of my ex's). We kissed, but there was nothing there on my end. And I knew he had serious feelings for me!

So, I went up to stay the weekend (nothing sexual, I slept on the couch). And my ex showed up. And it went all downhill from there. I made out with my ex and he said he wanted me back, that he was sorry and he missed me so much. And my heart and mind turned to mud!

To make a long story short, I made up a lie about his (my ex) friend, so I can get back with my ex. I got caught in the lie and hurt my ex's friend terribly. And they all dropped me cuz I was a liar, including my ex.

I've moved on, I'm married and happy. But it bugs me that I lied (it was a big lie) and hurt people that I, at one point, cared about.

They still live in the same house.

Do I clear the air and apologize for my stupidity and immaturity? -Or- just try to forget and move on? It's been 9 years and I think of it often!
 
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