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skellington
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Hi,
I have never thought that this would warrant as a problem, or maybe it is the fact of my age being on 17 (nearly 18) years old, that prevented me from looking into it. However, after much reasearching and self diagnosis tests (prompted by my dad calling me a "headcase...alcoholic"), all have resulted in a high probabilty of being (or potentially becoming) an alcoholic. I disagree though, but I would agree that maybe, I am a problem drinker...To help you to help me best, I will try to be as open as possible.
I drink to losen up, to forget my problems( depression, anxiety, PTSD, eating disorder), to calm down when angry, irritated and/or frustrated, it helps me deal with my all-consuming eating disorder, in the sense that, i CANNOT consume ANY morsel without subsequently purging it, EXCEPT when I am drinking. The reason i can manage then? Because, if i threw up what i ate when I'd been drinking, that would also be a waste of precious alcohol.
When it's available, I drink before school, without any ability to hold back from it. I simply MUST have it. I have only been caught once and narrowly avoided suspension. Since then, I have learnt to control my actions, I avoid talking or moving (to give away any signs of alcohol influence, uncoordinated movement and speech). On any given school day (given availability), I will have about 5 drinks in the space of an hour.
My tolerance has also got to the point where i can drink 750 mL of 80proof spirits quite comfortably.
At any time other than school mornings, i drink and i cannot stop.
I crave drinks in the morning, and night mainly, but a drink any time would suffice. I crave also when i am upset, angry, irritated or depressed, to calm and get my mind of things.
Sorry that this was so long, but I try to give as much helpful information as possible. My question is, is this a problem? Would people laugh at me if i even suggested I have a drinking problem (given age)?
Response greatly appreciated.
Thanks.
I have never thought that this would warrant as a problem, or maybe it is the fact of my age being on 17 (nearly 18) years old, that prevented me from looking into it. However, after much reasearching and self diagnosis tests (prompted by my dad calling me a "headcase...alcoholic"), all have resulted in a high probabilty of being (or potentially becoming) an alcoholic. I disagree though, but I would agree that maybe, I am a problem drinker...To help you to help me best, I will try to be as open as possible.
I drink to losen up, to forget my problems( depression, anxiety, PTSD, eating disorder), to calm down when angry, irritated and/or frustrated, it helps me deal with my all-consuming eating disorder, in the sense that, i CANNOT consume ANY morsel without subsequently purging it, EXCEPT when I am drinking. The reason i can manage then? Because, if i threw up what i ate when I'd been drinking, that would also be a waste of precious alcohol.
When it's available, I drink before school, without any ability to hold back from it. I simply MUST have it. I have only been caught once and narrowly avoided suspension. Since then, I have learnt to control my actions, I avoid talking or moving (to give away any signs of alcohol influence, uncoordinated movement and speech). On any given school day (given availability), I will have about 5 drinks in the space of an hour.
My tolerance has also got to the point where i can drink 750 mL of 80proof spirits quite comfortably.
At any time other than school mornings, i drink and i cannot stop.
I crave drinks in the morning, and night mainly, but a drink any time would suffice. I crave also when i am upset, angry, irritated or depressed, to calm and get my mind of things.
Sorry that this was so long, but I try to give as much helpful information as possible. My question is, is this a problem? Would people laugh at me if i even suggested I have a drinking problem (given age)?
Response greatly appreciated.
Thanks.