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Okay! This is the first chapter of my novel(I'm almost done it.l..basicly half way through it.)
Can you tell me if you like it?
If you like\love it I've posted other chapters leading up to 16(or 15)...
Chapter 1
I never really understood myself,I only understood that I want to be someone different and not be so shy,scared,curious. Curious that will I ever find love? Or will I just end up lonley.I've never really considered begin noticed too. I always sit with my two friends at the lunch table away from the crowds and thunderous voices. I get ridiculed for everything my life is seeming boring not the most interesting you can find. I write in my journal often...if that matters. All that matters is to find someone. I know it seems stupid but you can guess that most of my dreams are....
As I signed my name in my messy hand writing I slid it into the purple envelope my mom keeps hidden. Those envelopes were "Special" as she would say. Her mother and her only used them for life changing events. They would always write letters when I was younger,my mother didn't like using the internet and things like that. She told me that she used the purple envelopes alto when my mother and my father were dating. I secretly want to do the same if I ever find love. I highly doubt that...I hid the envelope under my pillow and headed out the door for school.
Passing the park that basically family's go to,houses and stores until I reached my final stop. Walking up the stairs and I flung opened the door to see one of my two friends smiling. Mark he usual tries to get me too be more brave but he and I know that will never happen.
"What's up? Do you know were Ev is?" Mark looked around concerned.
Ev is a nickname mark uses from Evangeline. A friend. The hallway was filled with laughter and chatting. I didn't expect this to happen on a Monday. As Mark and I walked through the hallway we kept talking.
"No,I don't think I know....actually...Maybe hang out near her locker. I bet you can find her there...hopefully." I whispered the last part. Knowing that Ev is probably still shaken up from the death of her sister...It has been 4 months. Mark nodded and walked away through the traffic of people I couldn't see him. I turned toward my locker and got my Math text books and headed to class.Ev is in this class though,so I get to spend some time with her. I barley do anymore...
I sat down at a desk and placed my backpack behind my seat.Ev walked in looking normal almost happier. Wearing here black pants and panda t shirt....She walked in between the desks and sat down beside me. Her heavily layered eye liner lined eyes smiled almost. I needed to know what was happening. Was she over her sisters death? She wasn't extremely close with her but stilled loved her. I think the thing that hurt Ev was that she committed suicide. Nobody hurt her but she hurt herself. Her mother is the kind of positive Why-Don't-You-Take-Up-Cheerleading? kinda of mother.
I poked her she spun her head in my direction.Mr.Smith wasn't here yet...
"What?"She cautiously asked seeing my eyes were mixed with different emotions.
"I was going to say if you were okay....you seem.Differnt."I mumbled the last part.
She did seem different more lively in a good way. I didn't want her to live in the past forever. Like telling me to never move on when my parents got divorced. I had to move on.
"I have good-" Ev stopped speaking knowing that Mr. Smith stormed into the class. He seemed a little bit rushed seeing that his tie was almost on backwards. He adjusted it and acted like nothing happened. He pushed up his glasses and spoke.
"Er...we have a new student...er...His name is Damen...Winter."He spoke nervously. He wasn't a confident kinda guy,or maybe he was a little off today cause he got another parking ticket. He seemed like those men who work in those labs without girlfriends.
Damen walked through the doorway...
I Put my head down to not stare,I knew what was going to happen. Those annoying girls would be friend him then some jocks would and then he would become one of "them" and I would regret ever looking at him. I could here his converse hit the limounium floor. He sat behind Ev since that was the only seat abvailbe.Ev blushed.
I could easily tell every single female was in love with Damen.I wasn't. Does that make me abnormal? Or weird? It was pretty oblivious all these females liked him since from the corner of my eye I could see them all staring mindlessly at him. While my nervous math teacher wrote algebra on the board my eyes were glued to the clock. I just waited until I could leave. Each second closer to the bell my heart unleashed a little more. I feel peoples stares or maybe one persons...
Seconds to minutes and Minutes to
Can you tell me if you like it?
If you like\love it I've posted other chapters leading up to 16(or 15)...
Chapter 1
I never really understood myself,I only understood that I want to be someone different and not be so shy,scared,curious. Curious that will I ever find love? Or will I just end up lonley.I've never really considered begin noticed too. I always sit with my two friends at the lunch table away from the crowds and thunderous voices. I get ridiculed for everything my life is seeming boring not the most interesting you can find. I write in my journal often...if that matters. All that matters is to find someone. I know it seems stupid but you can guess that most of my dreams are....
As I signed my name in my messy hand writing I slid it into the purple envelope my mom keeps hidden. Those envelopes were "Special" as she would say. Her mother and her only used them for life changing events. They would always write letters when I was younger,my mother didn't like using the internet and things like that. She told me that she used the purple envelopes alto when my mother and my father were dating. I secretly want to do the same if I ever find love. I highly doubt that...I hid the envelope under my pillow and headed out the door for school.
Passing the park that basically family's go to,houses and stores until I reached my final stop. Walking up the stairs and I flung opened the door to see one of my two friends smiling. Mark he usual tries to get me too be more brave but he and I know that will never happen.
"What's up? Do you know were Ev is?" Mark looked around concerned.
Ev is a nickname mark uses from Evangeline. A friend. The hallway was filled with laughter and chatting. I didn't expect this to happen on a Monday. As Mark and I walked through the hallway we kept talking.
"No,I don't think I know....actually...Maybe hang out near her locker. I bet you can find her there...hopefully." I whispered the last part. Knowing that Ev is probably still shaken up from the death of her sister...It has been 4 months. Mark nodded and walked away through the traffic of people I couldn't see him. I turned toward my locker and got my Math text books and headed to class.Ev is in this class though,so I get to spend some time with her. I barley do anymore...
I sat down at a desk and placed my backpack behind my seat.Ev walked in looking normal almost happier. Wearing here black pants and panda t shirt....She walked in between the desks and sat down beside me. Her heavily layered eye liner lined eyes smiled almost. I needed to know what was happening. Was she over her sisters death? She wasn't extremely close with her but stilled loved her. I think the thing that hurt Ev was that she committed suicide. Nobody hurt her but she hurt herself. Her mother is the kind of positive Why-Don't-You-Take-Up-Cheerleading? kinda of mother.
I poked her she spun her head in my direction.Mr.Smith wasn't here yet...
"What?"She cautiously asked seeing my eyes were mixed with different emotions.
"I was going to say if you were okay....you seem.Differnt."I mumbled the last part.
She did seem different more lively in a good way. I didn't want her to live in the past forever. Like telling me to never move on when my parents got divorced. I had to move on.
"I have good-" Ev stopped speaking knowing that Mr. Smith stormed into the class. He seemed a little bit rushed seeing that his tie was almost on backwards. He adjusted it and acted like nothing happened. He pushed up his glasses and spoke.
"Er...we have a new student...er...His name is Damen...Winter."He spoke nervously. He wasn't a confident kinda guy,or maybe he was a little off today cause he got another parking ticket. He seemed like those men who work in those labs without girlfriends.
Damen walked through the doorway...
I Put my head down to not stare,I knew what was going to happen. Those annoying girls would be friend him then some jocks would and then he would become one of "them" and I would regret ever looking at him. I could here his converse hit the limounium floor. He sat behind Ev since that was the only seat abvailbe.Ev blushed.
I could easily tell every single female was in love with Damen.I wasn't. Does that make me abnormal? Or weird? It was pretty oblivious all these females liked him since from the corner of my eye I could see them all staring mindlessly at him. While my nervous math teacher wrote algebra on the board my eyes were glued to the clock. I just waited until I could leave. Each second closer to the bell my heart unleashed a little more. I feel peoples stares or maybe one persons...
Seconds to minutes and Minutes to