Jade Torres
New member
The other day something weird happened to me. I was about to go to sleep and all of the sudden i had this curiosity to press my dogs neck just to see how it felt. I know it is wrong but i did it and i felt horrible when doing it because i knew it was like choking her or something. After i did that i cried and i have been having a big depression because of that. I didnt mean no harm i knew i didnt wanted to hurt her besides i did it quickly and not even hard but still. It is something weird because it was something that i didnt wanted to do but i went and did it. Its been like two days and i feel really depressed. My dog loves me and i love her but im afraid of myself. I want to talk to someone about it because it is hurting me. I cried in my room and i dont want to go near her or something because i still feel bad. When she comes near me i feel like something blank in me like if i'm in shock. I don't feel normal. I want to talk to someone but im afraid they might want to take her away from me. I have been praying and i havent done anything or don't intent to. I know it sounds weird but all i do is think about that situation. I have never hurt any animal before. However, i do suffer from depression a lot due to a relationship that i had. I can't believe i did something not normal when i had suffered from abuse myself. I don't know if it is because i have been depressed or what i have because i have NEVER hurted my pet before. I need help i feel that im going crazy thinking about that all the time.