Is there someone I can talk to & how can i stop being so self conscious?

[Bri]

Okay so im 16. && i really believe in the quote "A girls worst critic is her self". I am always putting myself down. For as long as i can remember i've always been really self conscious. I used to be chunky now im thinner but like squishy i guess you could say. & i know im not fat, im 5 ft tall & 106 lbs, but im not happy where i am. I want to be toned && most of all i want to wear a bathing suit this summer and not worry about what everyone is thinking. Ive never just worn a bathing suit i've always covered up with shorts and a tank top. && im getting older and i feel like since im so self conscious it's holding me back from being my real self and having fun. I just want to b happy with myself && not worry what everyone is thinking and about how i look every moment of the day. && i always say im going to work out and i will for a couple days but than i just lose motivation. & it's hard because it's not like im somewhere and im trying to go back to where i was before. I'm trying to go to a whole new place. But i feel like because im not over weight or have a serious problem people are just like "oh be quiet, your fine" & i don't think its fair that i don't get to be what makes me happy. Everyone says oh your so skinny and I always say im really not that skinny it's just the way i wear my clothes. & so it makes me even more scared to show my real self or even wear something that i think makes me look the slightest bit fat because i don't want them to be like "oh wow yeah she is kinda chunky". I just want to talk to someone who can help me or is going through the same thing because i just feel so alone because no one knows how i feel or what im going through.