I desire the actual deed (doing it) with a female, much more so than a male and I'd love to be with a female for the long haul. but men sometimes get me off more so than females do. but I most of the time fantasize about females. it's safe to say I'm probably a lesbian, right? I don't really want a relationship with a man. had maybe one crush on a guy (little crush) but my heavier feelings have been geared towards women.