do I love him? I'm confused!? Any advice is appreciated!! We are both 28 yr old males. I'm bisexual. I'm straight acting. He's "straight". He has a criminal felony record. He hangs in a rougher crowd. A crowd that would judge him if he were to be thought of as gay. He's rugged and simple and I love that about him.
We met 2 yrs ago in a gay bar. I was dancing on the floor by myself. He comes up and dances on me and I jump, He says in a joking manner, "Its ok, I'm straight dude!" So, we exchanged numbers later cuz he connected. We hang out a few times.
One time at his house, he pops in straight porn on the computer and we are watching it. I was too shy to make any moves. I think he was too. I wasn't even sure if this was a format to make the moves. I don't know how this stuff works. I'm pretty shy in the hooking up dept.
Another incident. He comes up to my job with his current girlfriend and asks my coworkers, "Where's (me) at? He's my boyfriend. He has great hair doesn't he? I love running my hands through it. " I couldn't believe he said this stuff in front of his girlfriend. Poor girl, she thought he was just joking. He acted so "straight' that noone questions his sexuality, so I think that's why he says some of the things he says. Cuz he can get away w/ it.
Well, I moved away a few months later. I moved 10 hrs away. I went back there last month to visit for a full month. I texted him I was in town, he told me to come over to his house that night. I kept resisting cuz I was shy. But I went and we hung out. He gave me a hug when he saw me and when I left. He said, "Lets go to the beach this weekend...have a picnic or something." I thought that sounded very gay because 2 straight guys don't do that really, so I thought.
Well, picnic day is here, we are drinking a lot! He gets really flirtatious. He drinks almost the whole Vodka 750mL bottle!! Grabbing my butt and crotch and telling me to come in the bathroom to "hold it" while he pees. He was pretty buzzed/drunk. He is a jokester, so I didn't pay much attention to it all. Just laughed it all off. All the while, he did see some girls on the beach and striked up a convo w/ them.
We go to his house after beach and he tells me that he thinks I'm hot and he likes guys who are like me. NOrmal and skin tone like mine. I had to leave his house for 2 hours to pick my friend up and he texts me, "Come back and lets have fun. Am I being forward enough?" He was saying a lot of sexual things via texting. I eventually went back to his house. So, he asks me to massage him. I'm a bit uncomfy and down 3 beers to do this. I kept telling him I sucked at it, but he demo'ed on me how to do it right. So I straddled on him and massaged EVERYTHING on him. He was excited. He wanted to cook me dinner and wash my car. I thought it was sweet, but I had to leave.
He calls me late at night and we talk all night on the phone. I think he must've been buzzed still.
I remembered being at his house and he kept telling me while I was massaging him, "Dude, you're not gay. You don't seem like it. You need a woman and kids. You're too good to be gay. You shouldn't be gay, you're too cool and hot." I thought the comments were dumb and told him, "I'm bi, cuz I'm massaging you now and I think you're hot.. so I'm not straight no matter what you say, ha." So he kept questioning my sexuality. He started saying, "I dunno what my mom would do if she found out I was gay. If she walked in right now and saw this, I don't care. I will just tell her you're my boyfriend!...You should move back here. Don't go back home. I'd love to live w/ you. I don't like living here, cuz my older brother checks my texts in my phone. I have no privacy." So we connected.
But for whatever reason, a few days later, he said, "hey, I've never kissed a guy before. I've never did stuff like that w/ a guy. I'm not gay. I don't wanna lead you on or anything. I think you're a great guy and hot, but that stuff made me uncomfortable. I don't regret it though." I told him, its ok.. We just massaged each other, no biggie.
Well, we went out a few nights later, he was drugged up on something and he kept grabbing my stomach saying, "Look at that lil fat there." We went to shoot pool and he told his friends at the pool hall that I was his "boyfriend" and "partner" and they joked and said, "We always knew you were gay!" He said he was kidding.
I've since left to go back to my home 10hrs away but I text him a lot &he hates when I text him because his brother reads his texts. He NEVER texts me back. He calls right back when I text him. But usually I don't answer cuz I'm too shy to talk on the phone. I really like him, but he s
We met 2 yrs ago in a gay bar. I was dancing on the floor by myself. He comes up and dances on me and I jump, He says in a joking manner, "Its ok, I'm straight dude!" So, we exchanged numbers later cuz he connected. We hang out a few times.
One time at his house, he pops in straight porn on the computer and we are watching it. I was too shy to make any moves. I think he was too. I wasn't even sure if this was a format to make the moves. I don't know how this stuff works. I'm pretty shy in the hooking up dept.
Another incident. He comes up to my job with his current girlfriend and asks my coworkers, "Where's (me) at? He's my boyfriend. He has great hair doesn't he? I love running my hands through it. " I couldn't believe he said this stuff in front of his girlfriend. Poor girl, she thought he was just joking. He acted so "straight' that noone questions his sexuality, so I think that's why he says some of the things he says. Cuz he can get away w/ it.
Well, I moved away a few months later. I moved 10 hrs away. I went back there last month to visit for a full month. I texted him I was in town, he told me to come over to his house that night. I kept resisting cuz I was shy. But I went and we hung out. He gave me a hug when he saw me and when I left. He said, "Lets go to the beach this weekend...have a picnic or something." I thought that sounded very gay because 2 straight guys don't do that really, so I thought.
Well, picnic day is here, we are drinking a lot! He gets really flirtatious. He drinks almost the whole Vodka 750mL bottle!! Grabbing my butt and crotch and telling me to come in the bathroom to "hold it" while he pees. He was pretty buzzed/drunk. He is a jokester, so I didn't pay much attention to it all. Just laughed it all off. All the while, he did see some girls on the beach and striked up a convo w/ them.
We go to his house after beach and he tells me that he thinks I'm hot and he likes guys who are like me. NOrmal and skin tone like mine. I had to leave his house for 2 hours to pick my friend up and he texts me, "Come back and lets have fun. Am I being forward enough?" He was saying a lot of sexual things via texting. I eventually went back to his house. So, he asks me to massage him. I'm a bit uncomfy and down 3 beers to do this. I kept telling him I sucked at it, but he demo'ed on me how to do it right. So I straddled on him and massaged EVERYTHING on him. He was excited. He wanted to cook me dinner and wash my car. I thought it was sweet, but I had to leave.
He calls me late at night and we talk all night on the phone. I think he must've been buzzed still.
I remembered being at his house and he kept telling me while I was massaging him, "Dude, you're not gay. You don't seem like it. You need a woman and kids. You're too good to be gay. You shouldn't be gay, you're too cool and hot." I thought the comments were dumb and told him, "I'm bi, cuz I'm massaging you now and I think you're hot.. so I'm not straight no matter what you say, ha." So he kept questioning my sexuality. He started saying, "I dunno what my mom would do if she found out I was gay. If she walked in right now and saw this, I don't care. I will just tell her you're my boyfriend!...You should move back here. Don't go back home. I'd love to live w/ you. I don't like living here, cuz my older brother checks my texts in my phone. I have no privacy." So we connected.
But for whatever reason, a few days later, he said, "hey, I've never kissed a guy before. I've never did stuff like that w/ a guy. I'm not gay. I don't wanna lead you on or anything. I think you're a great guy and hot, but that stuff made me uncomfortable. I don't regret it though." I told him, its ok.. We just massaged each other, no biggie.
Well, we went out a few nights later, he was drugged up on something and he kept grabbing my stomach saying, "Look at that lil fat there." We went to shoot pool and he told his friends at the pool hall that I was his "boyfriend" and "partner" and they joked and said, "We always knew you were gay!" He said he was kidding.
I've since left to go back to my home 10hrs away but I text him a lot &he hates when I text him because his brother reads his texts. He NEVER texts me back. He calls right back when I text him. But usually I don't answer cuz I'm too shy to talk on the phone. I really like him, but he s