It's very hard for me to keep track of homework assignments and due dates.
No matter how hard I try to do my work on time, I am usually late.
I have trouble getting up in the morning.
I jump from one topic to another in conversation.
I try to talk to five people at once, and end up not understanding any of them at all.
I interrupt other people when they're talking, even though I try not to.
Even when I try to listen in class my thoughts start wandering.
I can't seem to get started on school assignments until the last minute.
My room is very messy, beyond a disaster. I have no urge to clean it. The house isn't much better, since no one else in my household picks up much.
My friends frequently note me or tell me I'm "spacing out" and have to shout to get my attention.
I forget to do things my parents ask me to do. Not because I'm oppositional.
I frequently lose or misplace personal items.
I am distracted easily by sounds or by things I see, especially things to read like signs or posters.
I feel anxious or worried a lot of the time.
I am always moody and depressed, usually for no reason, even when I know I could/should be in a good mood.
I am so easily frustrated I cry, I've been known to cry over the littlest things like not remembering a one-point answer on a quiz.
I wish my friends and Dad understood how hard high school is for me.
I feel mentally exhausted when I get home from school.
It takes me so much longer to get assignments done compared to my classmates. I'm always the last to turn in a test.
The only way I can really study for a test is to stay up late the night before.
Even when I study hard I can't seem to remember things when I'm taking an exam.
It's next to impossible for me to stay organized.
I only make good grades in the classes that really interest me or have teachers I like. (A's in Econ/English, C's in Anatomy/Math. :C)
I have trouble completing papers and projects on time. Group work is impossible.
It seems like I'm always messing up.
I fidget or doodle in class because it's hard for me to sit still and listen.
I blurt things out without thinking.
I often fail to give close attention to details or makes careless mistakes in my work.
I don't seem to listen when people speak directly to me.
I suck at even quick and easy chores, but I always intend to do them, it's not that I refuse to.
I fidget constantly, adjust the way I'm sitting, jog my leg, and rap pencils on my desk.
I'm bad at intruding on others, butting into games, forgetting to knock, answering questions not directed at me, and overtaking conversations.
I work harder to hide my struggles and difficulties and conform to teacher, parent, and friend expectations.
I'm slipping back into depression because of all this, and it's not just seasonal blues this time.
I've had these symptoms between the last ten months and two years (two years ago I slipped into a hugely debilitating, suicidal depression that took a lot to pull me out of, and haven't been the same ever since) at varying degrees of severity, and only getting worse. I also suspect the trauma of my mother passing away this summer and the stress of raising my 13-year old brother basically alone (away from home father) has contributed to my stress overloads. It's severely affecting school, home-life, and my relationship. Is it a just lack of mental discipline or something more? Because, without seeming vain, I'm exceptionally bright, and these mistakes and flaws are rather unusual to my usual mindset. I always used to be the mature-beyond-my-age type, that was commended for raising the bar and being responsible. I never used to believe in ADD, though my friends have been pushing me to get evaluated, I've been doing my research and I'm wondering... - but we don't have insurance, and I'm not sure how. I don't know where doctors draw the line between someone who needs help and suspicion of drug seeking.
I don't want to get into hot water with anybody, and especially not fight to explain myself to my dad, who probably doesn't notice half of these issues I'm having. I know normal people face a lot of these on a regular basis, but do they face them all, constantly, like I have been? What's wrong with me?
PS: 17, Female, Senior at a JVS Highschool.
No matter how hard I try to do my work on time, I am usually late.
I have trouble getting up in the morning.
I jump from one topic to another in conversation.
I try to talk to five people at once, and end up not understanding any of them at all.
I interrupt other people when they're talking, even though I try not to.
Even when I try to listen in class my thoughts start wandering.
I can't seem to get started on school assignments until the last minute.
My room is very messy, beyond a disaster. I have no urge to clean it. The house isn't much better, since no one else in my household picks up much.
My friends frequently note me or tell me I'm "spacing out" and have to shout to get my attention.
I forget to do things my parents ask me to do. Not because I'm oppositional.
I frequently lose or misplace personal items.
I am distracted easily by sounds or by things I see, especially things to read like signs or posters.
I feel anxious or worried a lot of the time.
I am always moody and depressed, usually for no reason, even when I know I could/should be in a good mood.
I am so easily frustrated I cry, I've been known to cry over the littlest things like not remembering a one-point answer on a quiz.
I wish my friends and Dad understood how hard high school is for me.
I feel mentally exhausted when I get home from school.
It takes me so much longer to get assignments done compared to my classmates. I'm always the last to turn in a test.
The only way I can really study for a test is to stay up late the night before.
Even when I study hard I can't seem to remember things when I'm taking an exam.
It's next to impossible for me to stay organized.
I only make good grades in the classes that really interest me or have teachers I like. (A's in Econ/English, C's in Anatomy/Math. :C)
I have trouble completing papers and projects on time. Group work is impossible.
It seems like I'm always messing up.
I fidget or doodle in class because it's hard for me to sit still and listen.
I blurt things out without thinking.
I often fail to give close attention to details or makes careless mistakes in my work.
I don't seem to listen when people speak directly to me.
I suck at even quick and easy chores, but I always intend to do them, it's not that I refuse to.
I fidget constantly, adjust the way I'm sitting, jog my leg, and rap pencils on my desk.
I'm bad at intruding on others, butting into games, forgetting to knock, answering questions not directed at me, and overtaking conversations.
I work harder to hide my struggles and difficulties and conform to teacher, parent, and friend expectations.
I'm slipping back into depression because of all this, and it's not just seasonal blues this time.
I've had these symptoms between the last ten months and two years (two years ago I slipped into a hugely debilitating, suicidal depression that took a lot to pull me out of, and haven't been the same ever since) at varying degrees of severity, and only getting worse. I also suspect the trauma of my mother passing away this summer and the stress of raising my 13-year old brother basically alone (away from home father) has contributed to my stress overloads. It's severely affecting school, home-life, and my relationship. Is it a just lack of mental discipline or something more? Because, without seeming vain, I'm exceptionally bright, and these mistakes and flaws are rather unusual to my usual mindset. I always used to be the mature-beyond-my-age type, that was commended for raising the bar and being responsible. I never used to believe in ADD, though my friends have been pushing me to get evaluated, I've been doing my research and I'm wondering... - but we don't have insurance, and I'm not sure how. I don't know where doctors draw the line between someone who needs help and suspicion of drug seeking.
I don't want to get into hot water with anybody, and especially not fight to explain myself to my dad, who probably doesn't notice half of these issues I'm having. I know normal people face a lot of these on a regular basis, but do they face them all, constantly, like I have been? What's wrong with me?PS: 17, Female, Senior at a JVS Highschool.