Germain the inquisitor
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i get days when i just feel so hopeless , so disadvantaged and far away from where i want to be.
to sum it up , im 32 have no work record , a long psychiatric record , a criminal record , a record of violence , never got qualifications , missed out on a normal , average life of building relationships and a lot of other things..
dont get me wrong , i did balls up quite a few opportunity's to and made a lot of mistakes , but i also have faced a lot of difficult psychological struggles with anger and anxiety to .
a combination of misfortunes and mistakes on my part.
to sum it up , now ive lived on my own for 5 years in my own flat on sick benefits. posses few material items except my computer , im waiting for psychotherapy , have been waiting a while because of lack of resources.
ive joined a gym recently to get fit , and focus my energys . ive asked for my social worker to look for groups i could attend relating to anxiety management or social skills groups something i could work on , that would enhance me until i get therapy , but the groups that have so far been found only take people with mild to moderate mental health problems...........so my social worker is to continue to look.
at this stage in my life , im honestly worrying what will become of me.....how i will achieve my ambitions or build relationships. ?
im naturally reclusive and reserved and coupled with my social skills problems it will be difficult.
and how will i achieve my hopes of eventually living in a quiet seaside village, buying my own home - because thats the only ambition i have left .
id like to live past cornwall, jersey or somewhere seasidy in europe. a quite seaside village , buying my own house.
but im so disadvantaged at 32 , nearly 33.
any ideas ?
to sum it up , im 32 have no work record , a long psychiatric record , a criminal record , a record of violence , never got qualifications , missed out on a normal , average life of building relationships and a lot of other things..
dont get me wrong , i did balls up quite a few opportunity's to and made a lot of mistakes , but i also have faced a lot of difficult psychological struggles with anger and anxiety to .
a combination of misfortunes and mistakes on my part.
to sum it up , now ive lived on my own for 5 years in my own flat on sick benefits. posses few material items except my computer , im waiting for psychotherapy , have been waiting a while because of lack of resources.
ive joined a gym recently to get fit , and focus my energys . ive asked for my social worker to look for groups i could attend relating to anxiety management or social skills groups something i could work on , that would enhance me until i get therapy , but the groups that have so far been found only take people with mild to moderate mental health problems...........so my social worker is to continue to look.
at this stage in my life , im honestly worrying what will become of me.....how i will achieve my ambitions or build relationships. ?
im naturally reclusive and reserved and coupled with my social skills problems it will be difficult.
and how will i achieve my hopes of eventually living in a quiet seaside village, buying my own home - because thats the only ambition i have left .
id like to live past cornwall, jersey or somewhere seasidy in europe. a quite seaside village , buying my own house.
but im so disadvantaged at 32 , nearly 33.
any ideas ?