As'salaamualaikum wa rahmatulaahi wa barakaatuhu,
to start with, i am Nasr and am gay as well - and i think tht i'm understanding enough on about how the dilemma a 'Gay Muslim' may be faced with.
i do believe that the Allah(sw't) beholds the cure for each and everything (be it whether a mental, physical or even spiritual affliction).
i dont think that its a menatal sickness though - even though there are scholars who might say the contrary of ht am saying; And i've read it somewhere that they even had a name for it. - Allah(sw't) hu Allam.
i dont know if i was born homosexual or that was indocrinated inst me during my earlier years - my recollection of it is hazy..
i'm much stressed on about my sexuality as well - but the least of what i've done is that i've accepted myself as being bearer of that 'disease' - and i linked it to being the like of a spiritaul affliction - as Homosexuality does not form part of our instinctive predisposal ( fitrah ).
i barely know brothers who are struggling against this affliction though there are many scattered around the world..
i think that both of us need to be patient - Sabr is of utmost importance; i must admit that sometimes i'm much fed up of myself and feel soo down and soo dejected and soo miserable - i think that yu must e knowing of wht italk on about..
but it is also mentioned via hadeeth that we must not only pray, but we must also resort to the using the prescribed treatment as well..
as for me - i've decided that i'll - insha'Allah - never entertain a homosexual relationship..(even if it was to be a relationship that did not had sex as part of it)..
i've tried meeting Muslims gay brothers who share the same point of view as mine - but uptil now - i've been much unsuccessful. and..
i think that we should 'imposed' on ourselves lots of restrictions..
like abandoning these lewd networking sites - its all filthy there..
Abandoning pornography..
Abandoning Masturbation..
and then..
as for me - it seems that am always having bad thought on about guys - so i'm lowering my gaze as much as possible..
i knw that these things may seem to be soo harsh..
but then its has also been said that Allah(sw't) never burdens us with something that we wont be able to bear.. and then its is also said that the harsher the test, the better are the rewards..
pff - there are soo mna things that i can be speaking on about; am just typing like a freak..
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hmm -
i hope that there aint any repetition - i think that we should be patient..but i've also haerd that the prescribed treatment is wedding but then it is against shari'a to marry someone for whom our hearts feel no passion for - and i really dont want to deceive someone..
i myself am struggling - adn its reallty hard - i've psycologically prepared myself to live a lonesome life - even though Allah(sw't) knws best if ever i'll be blessed with marital life or not -
just be patient Bro..and persevere, ont let the whispers of shaytaan envenom yr mind( it might be telling you that you are need theese stuffs, or tht you can do it only once and then repent..and then it can also tell you that you can do bad things(like masturbating and so on) and that Allah(sw't) will understand why we are doing as such... or it can tell you to babndon yr prayers when one is feeling liek crap... or it can tell you to to talk to other gays(who aint islamic at all).. or it can tell you that things will nevr change and that we'll never ever be cured - Allah(sw't) be my witness -- i've heard of guy who is now happily married with kids and who was once a gay... or etc etc - there are loads of 'shits' as such that this 'damned one' can insipate in our mind... ) just dont heed to them Bro..and go..deeper in deen..
and ask lots of Du'as... and insha'Allah - you'll be ohk.. you'll be fine. insha'Allah we'll be fine.
