Mike Walsh
New member
When you stay on the internet, maintain anti-social behavior for a while, while surfing the internet, you begin to develop a world in your mind and thoughts, especially if you are known to be creative. But its a bad world. There is a side of me that wants to escape it, and there is a side that doesn't want to escape it. It started as pretty fun being homeschooled and everything because i would have more free time on my hands but it turned bad a few weeks into it. I started looking up more porn, agressive porn, starting getting so bored that I would start watching real raw death footage on the internet and just watch all sorts of sick stuff on the internet until it consumed me. I started dreaming dreams of me killing people, I became more passive aggressive and developed more anger issues along with becoming more apathetic and thinking everyone in this world were puppets of my own desire because I have fully developed a world in my head and I even when I go out now, I still think I'm in my head. I have good social skills because everyone I talk to I don't think is really real, it is a very weird feeling. I was homeschooled for about 4 years and within the end of the first year this started. How did this happen? And is it common for people who stay consumed in the internet and maintain anti-social behavior for a very long time to feel like this?