its happened several times. i had an abusive past which i am still working out how the world truly works.
anyway i had this friend on the internet, and he was going through a hard time. i always comforted him and encouraged him to have respect for himself. i really liked him a lot. but then i was going through a hard time, i guess i was too clingy onto him, or replied on him too much emotionally but he then just stopped talking to me. i know i was maybe too clingy, but i now know that he must not have valued me much as a friend at all.
in the mean while, i felt i was becoming a psychopath, i criticised everything i did and looked for signs of me being a psychopath (because i had lost him). eventually i couldn't take it anymore and burst out crying. my friend then told me i wasn't a psychopath and he should have said something instead of giving up an entire friendship.
so is it possible to be doing the cycle of violence with yourself? or victimising yourself?
anyway i had this friend on the internet, and he was going through a hard time. i always comforted him and encouraged him to have respect for himself. i really liked him a lot. but then i was going through a hard time, i guess i was too clingy onto him, or replied on him too much emotionally but he then just stopped talking to me. i know i was maybe too clingy, but i now know that he must not have valued me much as a friend at all.
in the mean while, i felt i was becoming a psychopath, i criticised everything i did and looked for signs of me being a psychopath (because i had lost him). eventually i couldn't take it anymore and burst out crying. my friend then told me i wasn't a psychopath and he should have said something instead of giving up an entire friendship.
so is it possible to be doing the cycle of violence with yourself? or victimising yourself?