I've been dreaming about it, fantasizing about it and it's driving me crazy. It doesn't help that my husband has performance anxiety lots of times. I feel like i'm stuck because i'm young, sexy and feel myself growing more lustful as the days go. I don't know if this is a phase but I feel very sexy to the point where it is a turn on and being around other men who are lusting after me brings me some sort of sexual gratification. My husband lusts after me but ends up performing lackluster and i'm left unsatisfied.
There is a man here who is on my floor at work and we pass eachother since we are near one another's office. I can feel him looking at me as I approach and I refuse eye contact until we are just passing and then it is utterly electric to the point that it takes my breath away and i'm left to retreat to the bathroom to pleasure myself. There are really no conversations between us, only those intense looks.
Is this normal what i'm going through or am I a bad person for feeling this way. I just feel that all my youth and desire is being wasted. I love my husband as a companion and at one time, we couldn't keep our hands off one another but now...I long to be pinned against the wall in a dark stairwell by this man and I can think of nothing else.
I do love my husband.
There is a man here who is on my floor at work and we pass eachother since we are near one another's office. I can feel him looking at me as I approach and I refuse eye contact until we are just passing and then it is utterly electric to the point that it takes my breath away and i'm left to retreat to the bathroom to pleasure myself. There are really no conversations between us, only those intense looks.
Is this normal what i'm going through or am I a bad person for feeling this way. I just feel that all my youth and desire is being wasted. I love my husband as a companion and at one time, we couldn't keep our hands off one another but now...I long to be pinned against the wall in a dark stairwell by this man and I can think of nothing else.
I do love my husband.