is it love for the woman or her lifestyle?

[Jeffrey]

last saturday my girlfriend of a monthand a half broke up with me. we come from 2 different worlds, wendy raises and shows horse all over the country and i am from the suburbs. we met through the internet and hit it off right away. the chemistry was there and the relationship took off. we live 40 miles apart so i would end up staying over for the weekends i really wanted to take it slow because i did not want to rush anything. we would feed the horses together and ride her 4 wheeler together and just spend every minute together and i was in total bliss, enjoying her lifestyle while i found my identity slipping. now that we are apart i feel lost because i miss doing all these fun things together. there were some red flags that brushed aside while we were together. wendy is very independent and set in her ways and does not vary from her structured life. she was in a 13 year faithful marriage that she ended because she felt that they were just roommates also she just ended a 3 year relationship because she felt the same way about him. when wendy met me and said that she fell in love with me i believed her all she asked of me was to stay myself and be good to her and i would have her heart forever. i was a prince to her and gave her my heart completely and now it is crushed. i am having trouble sleeping and think about what i could have done to make her break up with me. wendy told me that she is a mess with relationships and i would find someone way better than her. i am very handsome and charming and have a huge heart and now i feel so betrayed and alone and so hurt. she told me to give her some time so i have not called her at all what does it mean when a woman of 43 says that. please help