I'm really doing my best to get over a breakup - a recent failed relationship. I was content, happy, independent before him and he was so confident he wanted a relationship w. me. I was a good gf - respected, appreciated him and what he did, yet was never a doormat nor chased him, never held him back fr. his freedom, friends, interests. After 3 months, he decided he wasn't ready and his priorities of work and friends came before me. He still cares (and fr. what he and his best friend said, i'm "everything he wants in a girl but isn't ready"...). I always thought if a guy really loved/appreciated a girl, there is no excuse.
I think what's making it difficult was that I lost my virginity to him. I don't want that to be the issue why or the reason why it's holding me back fr. getting over him. I simply waited until i was mentally and physically ready and also a guy who i had good chemistry and whom i really cared about, possibly love him. (I'm 23) There were other chances (w. other guys before) but I knew when i decided to be in a relatinship w. this guy he was worth it...I didn't know what would happen but there was that potential I could be w. him for a while (esp his past records w. relationships were long term and he was wanting one). As I got older, I knew the meaning of it of would change -it's not as "big of deal" compared to when youre 16 BUT it does take on a completely different meaning compared to when you're that age. I resent him very much bc...we dated for 2-3 dinky months. At least if we did for a year, it would have "glorified" it....but no, it was "i care about this girl, I know i want to be w. her." and out of his confusion, indecisiveness, it's like he woke up and said, "no, i don't want it anymore..." didn't even try. And i KNOW he didn't just date me for the sex. I'm scared for myself now. I don't want to be w. anyone else or to be close or initmate w. anyone else for years and I don't want this experience to damange me for it. I know he feels guilty, especially about this virginity thing. I hope i'll get better for it....
I think what's making it difficult was that I lost my virginity to him. I don't want that to be the issue why or the reason why it's holding me back fr. getting over him. I simply waited until i was mentally and physically ready and also a guy who i had good chemistry and whom i really cared about, possibly love him. (I'm 23) There were other chances (w. other guys before) but I knew when i decided to be in a relatinship w. this guy he was worth it...I didn't know what would happen but there was that potential I could be w. him for a while (esp his past records w. relationships were long term and he was wanting one). As I got older, I knew the meaning of it of would change -it's not as "big of deal" compared to when youre 16 BUT it does take on a completely different meaning compared to when you're that age. I resent him very much bc...we dated for 2-3 dinky months. At least if we did for a year, it would have "glorified" it....but no, it was "i care about this girl, I know i want to be w. her." and out of his confusion, indecisiveness, it's like he woke up and said, "no, i don't want it anymore..." didn't even try. And i KNOW he didn't just date me for the sex. I'm scared for myself now. I don't want to be w. anyone else or to be close or initmate w. anyone else for years and I don't want this experience to damange me for it. I know he feels guilty, especially about this virginity thing. I hope i'll get better for it....