Is it Blasphemy to make fun of Jesus?

[Bryce]

I was wondering this because when I was 7 I became a christian than later in my life I went through A stage where I doubted the existence of God but still believed in my heart, during that time I made fun of jesus mostly drawing pictures of him mostly just him wearing sunglasses and being chill, then one day me and a friend had a conversation about how Hitler was a good speaker than we brought up Jesus being a good speaker also we wanted to draw a picture of jesus with a swastika armband on, we never finished this ignorant picture because my artbook vanished, thought nothing of it, then later this year I got saved again because I didn't feel right with my relationship with God and felt bad and scared that I was going to Hell and I have big anxiety problems, then one day while I'm saved I talked to my friends about A word I heard but never read in the Bible or understood called Blasphemy, then I convinced myself I committed it and I'm going to hell, even though I'm saved and I have repented for all my sins and I have never claimed that The Holy Spirit is evil or anything like that. I don't think I have ,my preachers told me I wouldn't even be concerned and I would have no desire to be a christian or feel bad when I sin if I committed it. I'm 16 and terrified please don't write immature answers, and please be truthful. Thanks.