So I dated this guy and for a while I really liked him. He's older than me, though, so I could tell he was the type whose total serious relationship or no relationship at all. When he asked me to be his girlfriend I declined. He told me he'd wait for me because "your an amazing girl and I mean it when I say I'll be here when you finish college/graduate school."
It's not that I'm scared of relationships. It's that I didn't want to go in the direction he was going, and honestly the feelings died. Things got weird as we have a class together this semester and this is the only time I see him; he never texts me anymore, but every time I see him he is super excited to see he and hugs me like three times before we depart. I can feel how much he cares for me, but we only technically went out on 3 dates and I let him kiss me but that is it.
Part of the reason I said no to a relationship is that I could tell if I said yes he'd want to be with me all the time and want to control me because that's how his personality is, and I didn't want to get into that when I really didn't like him a lot.
Now it's horrible, because he asked me to read a short story he wrote for his class which was two people meeting up again after years apart and the girl had travelled the world and the guy was back from the war.... exactly our paths as he wants to go into the marines (he was going to finish his degree first but now he wants to go in this year... I hope it wasn't me who did this to him)
Anywayss. I don't want to be with him, but I was thinking about how I'd feel if I saw him with someone else and I think I'd be jealous. Is this unnatural? I know its selfish to want him to love me and me not love him back, but I think it's part of human nature... everyone I've seen who sees their ex's, no matter how bad they were, with someone new they trash talk them and it seems they are jealous. The reason I thought of this is I checked his facebook today and saw some girl wrote on his wall and someone commented on it how they should "get a room" implying they were flirting or something.. I bet it's nothing but still got me thinking about all this.
Does this mean I still have feelings for him I am not recognizing? Or am I just being a normal girl who broke it off with a lovesick guy?
It's not that I'm scared of relationships. It's that I didn't want to go in the direction he was going, and honestly the feelings died. Things got weird as we have a class together this semester and this is the only time I see him; he never texts me anymore, but every time I see him he is super excited to see he and hugs me like three times before we depart. I can feel how much he cares for me, but we only technically went out on 3 dates and I let him kiss me but that is it.
Part of the reason I said no to a relationship is that I could tell if I said yes he'd want to be with me all the time and want to control me because that's how his personality is, and I didn't want to get into that when I really didn't like him a lot.
Now it's horrible, because he asked me to read a short story he wrote for his class which was two people meeting up again after years apart and the girl had travelled the world and the guy was back from the war.... exactly our paths as he wants to go into the marines (he was going to finish his degree first but now he wants to go in this year... I hope it wasn't me who did this to him)
Anywayss. I don't want to be with him, but I was thinking about how I'd feel if I saw him with someone else and I think I'd be jealous. Is this unnatural? I know its selfish to want him to love me and me not love him back, but I think it's part of human nature... everyone I've seen who sees their ex's, no matter how bad they were, with someone new they trash talk them and it seems they are jealous. The reason I thought of this is I checked his facebook today and saw some girl wrote on his wall and someone commented on it how they should "get a room" implying they were flirting or something.. I bet it's nothing but still got me thinking about all this.
Does this mean I still have feelings for him I am not recognizing? Or am I just being a normal girl who broke it off with a lovesick guy?