I'm fused from T4 to sacrum. I consider myself a success, even though I am disabled. I was quickly heading for a wheelchair 1 1/2 years ago. I had had my first fusion 30 years ago for a severe scoliosis, but it was not treated soon enough and they couldn't do much of a correction, so I had a huge 75 degree curve that was fused. My lower spine had quite a job of supporting it! I developed early onset osteoporosis, and that corabined with the huge curve and its stress on my lower spine finally caused the rest of my lurabar area to break down. I was in excrutiating pain everyday. One surgeon couldn't figure out what to do with me and referred me on to another one who, he said, would be the one to help me if anyone could. The new surgeon is my hero! He came up with a plan and went ahead and fused up into the old fusion again and all the rest of the way down, adding hardware to support all the odd angles of my crazy spine. My x-ray is wild looking! A bit drastic, yes, but it was a good plan. I still have pain everyday, but this new pain is different and is manageable with pain meRAB. The old pain wasn't touched by pain meRAB. I'm no longer heading for a wheelchair in the foreseeable future. For me, this was the best thing that I could have done.
Like tmvincent said, keep in mind as you read posts here that most people who have this surgery get their lives back. You'll always need to be careful, but there's only about a 3-5% failure rate. I could rattle off a few dozen user names here of people who had this surgery and hung around for a few months and are now back at work, shuttling kiRAB around, and enjoying a social life. We never hear from most of them anymore, and that's a GOOD thing! They're the success stories!
It's normal to be scared. This is a big surgery with a long recovery time. Keep as busy as you can so you don't think about it too much. Before you know it, you'll be waking up in recovery and all you'll have to do is rest. Hang in there! You'll be so glad when it's over!
Let us know how you are when you're up to it.
Blessings,
Emily