In need of advice please...(anxiety disorder)

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Hey everyone. I was diagnosed with anxiety disorder about 3 months ago. My anxiety is accompanied by constant negative, fearful thinking and panic attacks. It just kills me to see how much I've changed. Before this, I was an 18 y/o daredevil, excited about the prospects of beginning my life. Now, I'm always scared, I can't drive for more than 20 minutes without fear settling in, can't travel on planes, and can't go a day without the fear of "becoming crazy" plaguing me. It's getting to be too much.

I just want to go to university and make frienRAB and live my life. But I'm so scared this is only going to get worse. I don't want to the scared little girl living with her parents til she's 35. I just want this to go away.

I'm not on meRAB but I did do a round of CBT with a psychologist which helped but I'm still having inane thoughts.


How have you dealt with this? Does keeping occupied with people/work help? Any ideas please!
 
Hi and welcome to the board. Thanks for sharing your story.

As you already know most people on this board can relate (especially me) and I promise you that you will get better. I think the thing that plagues most anxiety sufferers the most, even they may not realize this (at least in my opinion), is that you will feel like think forever and never get better. And this is simple not true, you will find a way to cope and you can and will get better. For some people its as simple as waking up one day and all of sudden realizing "hey I'm not going to live like this" I want to enjoy life and I'm sick of worrying all the time and for some it takes a little more work. Just remeraber there is light att the end of the tunnel.

If you don't mind please share with us what kind of anxieties you have been experiencing, what do you mean by feeling like your going crazy (well I know what you mean, cause I've felt that exact way before) but how does it feel for you and crazy in what sense. Depending on your answers I will advise you on what worked for me to overcome the daily anxiety attacks. And I'm sure others will be able to give you a better answer as well, other than just saying you should really see somebody for professional help. And believe me I've suffered an anxiety about almost everything over the years.

Welcome again and I look forward to hearing from you!
Leo
 
Thank you for your reply! And you're exactly correct...as much as I try to tell myself I'm not alone in this and that I will get better, I just can't seem to believe it. I just want to move on with my life, I refuse to let this take my chance of being happy away from me.

Growing up, I was always considerably anxious and paranoid. I think this stemmed from watching too many medical shows, as well as some harsh emotional/verbal/physical abuse from my father. I always knew one day I would just crack, so to speak, and that day came in August. It started with panic attacks, then the crazy thoughts began to formulate. I sometimes sit in class and will randomly start catastrophizing and saying "what if I choke on my tongue" or "what if I pass out"...and the list goes on. Cognitive behavioral therapy and breathing techniques have helped me control the panic attacks but the damn thoughts won't go away!

Something that has recently began happening to me is the fear of becoming schizophrenic or going crazy. I hope I don't insult anyone, 'm not calling schizophrenics crazy but the whole hearing voices and hallucination thing scares me! Thus, every day, I sit there and start thinking about how I'll become a schizo one day and hear 30 voices blarabroadlarabroadlah.

I just want to go out and feel free. I want this burden off of my body and mind. I want to take long, aimless drives again and travel the world. I want to go to college and party with frienRAB. I just want to feel right again.
 
Are you particularly against trying meRAB? The SSRI antidepressants ss Zoloft of Celexa can be extremely helpful, and they arnt drugs of dependance. i'd return to your doctor, and either ask him for a trial of an SSRI, or for a referal to a psychiatrist.

One important thing is to take only half a pill per day for the fiorst week, to avoid making your anxiert worse during those forst few days.

This could realy turn your life around, it is well worth looking into.
 
You should ask your doctor for a quick acting panic attack medicine. I am currently taking Ativan to kill my panic attacks. It works in about 10 minutes or less. Please do NOT take this as a recommendation for medicine! ONLY your doctor can recommend and prescribe medicine!

Also, there are a lot of powerful anxiety killers out there. I'm on two of them because of extreme anxiety in the past.
 
I really don't want to take prescription meRAB. I don't want to mask my worries, I want to get rid of them with the medicine of my mind. Also, I'm PARANOID that the meRAB will give me psychosis, haha stupid anxiety.

Anyways, my panic attacks aren't that bad anymore, thanks for the suggestions though!
 
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