I'm stupid for asking this question, but I am just an emotional wreck. me and my ex are both 18. we were best friends since 6th grade, and we dated for about 13 months. we were in love. I don't know how to convince anyone out there, but in all honesty, he was my soul mate. we loved each other more than anyone else. we planned on spending forever together and we talked openly about marriage and kids. we both kind of really wanted to get married young. me and him were abstinent. we wanted to wait to have sex, we thought it was smart and the right thing to do. So I knew he wasn't using me for anything, or telling me things just to get sex. he was my best friend. he went away to college, and neither of us were excited for a long distance relationship, but we weren't scared. we both planned on making it work. I booked a hotel for me to go and visit him about 1 and a half months into the school year and we made a skype schedule for every week. we were so ready for this relationship to be long distance. I even made my school schedule so that I could graduate with my BS in biology in 3 years so that I could move to be with him a year sooner. well, the week after I got back from visiting him for the first time, he told me that he didn't love me. and he didn't love me since he left. he said his feelings were 100% gone, and they left almost overnight. I was hurt, confused, and resentful. I hated him, at least I tried. I broke up with him immediately. He admitted to lying to my face, he said he was a good liar, a good actor, and a bad boyfriend. he never cheated on me, he never would. he just felt like I deserved better- which was like a slap in my face. since we were long distance, I had to end it over the phone. He refused to pick up his phone because he knew a break up was coming. which was weird because he told me he wanted a break up. so I was forced to text him. (believe me, I didn't want it that way.) after that text was sent, he never responded. our next contact was over a month later when he texted me to say hey. It infuriated me. I was trying to move on, but I can't forget about him. no matter how hard I try. we looked at engagement rings together, we did everything together. we were truly in love. I know I was and he knew he was. now, he wants to be friends. I can't do that. it would be way too hard. he keeps saying he does not want a girlfriend. he is very adament on that. he says I prevented him from having freedom, which isn't true because he doesn't party. I asked him if he meant about doing things with girls, he said 100% no. He repeated he doesn't want anything to do with girls. I am SO confused and hurt and lost. PLEASE HELP. I want him back becaiuse I want what we had back, it was so real and special. what do I do?
the problem with me is that I feel like looking for guys in the future is going to be so hard for me, because I am going to compare everything I have with them to what I had with him, which was so perfect for that entire year, minus the 2 bad months. I truly believed he was the one for me. it's so hard for me to not have him on my mind. and when I've talked to him, he never gives me answers. everything he says is, "IDK" and he doesn't know anything about what happened.
he told me he doesn't want to date anyone, as in anyone. he wants to be single throughout his entire 4 years at college. but what's weird is that he suggested we date over the summer. why? i mean it's so rude he would even suggest that.
I'm telling you.. what we had was definitely love
I thought a lot about the possibility of him being gay. I asked him about it actually recently, post breaking up. he acted like I was crazy to ask, although the signs all point to it lol! the sex thing always confused me. it was his idea to wait, and I thought it was a good idea. so I went along with it. now tell me how many guys don't want sex LOL. small percentage
the problem with me is that I feel like looking for guys in the future is going to be so hard for me, because I am going to compare everything I have with them to what I had with him, which was so perfect for that entire year, minus the 2 bad months. I truly believed he was the one for me. it's so hard for me to not have him on my mind. and when I've talked to him, he never gives me answers. everything he says is, "IDK" and he doesn't know anything about what happened.
he told me he doesn't want to date anyone, as in anyone. he wants to be single throughout his entire 4 years at college. but what's weird is that he suggested we date over the summer. why? i mean it's so rude he would even suggest that.
I'm telling you.. what we had was definitely love
I thought a lot about the possibility of him being gay. I asked him about it actually recently, post breaking up. he acted like I was crazy to ask, although the signs all point to it lol! the sex thing always confused me. it was his idea to wait, and I thought it was a good idea. so I went along with it. now tell me how many guys don't want sex LOL. small percentage