Okay before I start this off, we are NOT dating. Everyone assumed that. im in 8th grade and ive been having a really rough time this year, and i did some stuff i shouldnt have. i became friends with a junior in high school and i have promised him i wouldnt do anything bad anymore. well i was writing a note back and forth with my friend about what i had done bad and about the junior and (dumb to write it down) the teacher took it and gave it to the counselor, who called my mom. my mom has nothing against the junior in high school, she just doesnt like the idea of me talking to him. so im not allowed anymore online and i barely ever see him. he's so amazing and he really helps me through each day. he said he wants to follow her rules because she is my mother and he respects that. but seriously IDK how im going to be okay. i wont see him for a very long time.
me: but how can that even happen?
i'm not going to be okay without you (his name)
have you forgotten?
i need you
Him: (my name) no you dont, you functioned before and you can after
you just have to believe it yourself
me: but im not going to even have anything that reminds me of you
nothing to show me that you're here
him: your memory
me: that is nothing to me
that will only make it worse
and for once because of you i cant breathe and i crying.
Sent at 1:25 PM on Saturday
him: (my name), take a deep breath, count your pulse, and remember you will be fine
you are the only one thats stopping you from being fine
you just have to tell yourself you will be
me: i dont want to be fine without you
him: im just one person (my name), and its not like ill be gone forever
so please just help me.
me: but how can that even happen?
i'm not going to be okay without you (his name)
have you forgotten?
i need you
Him: (my name) no you dont, you functioned before and you can after
you just have to believe it yourself
me: but im not going to even have anything that reminds me of you
nothing to show me that you're here
him: your memory
me: that is nothing to me
that will only make it worse
and for once because of you i cant breathe and i crying.
Sent at 1:25 PM on Saturday
him: (my name), take a deep breath, count your pulse, and remember you will be fine
you are the only one thats stopping you from being fine
you just have to tell yourself you will be
me: i dont want to be fine without you
him: im just one person (my name), and its not like ill be gone forever
so please just help me.