I'm using him for sex?

[Shay]

Was in a long (off and on) committed relationship for a number of years until my ex cheated on me. I'm one of the good girls who really stuck in here and tried to make it work. Enough was enough and we finally broke up. I know I'm still not over the breakup but again...we are not together. N e way, I have kinda moved on. I was abstinent for 3 years and finally gave in to a guy friend of mine that I've wanted to sleep with for a long time. He labels that we are in a relationship but to be honest my feelings aren't attached and I AM USING HIM FOR SEX. I want to stop but it is phenomenal intimacy. Even though my ex and I aren't 2gether I feel like I'm sneaking around him. We have a young child 2gether and every opportunity I get by myself, I am with the other guy fulfilling sexual pleasures. Not sure where this is coming from but for a while now I have been having reoccuring dreams about my other ex (childhood years). I am an adult now and I can't stop thinking about him. Haven't seen him in years and I think I want him too.