Hey there!
Before I start, I'd like to point out that this will probably be a huge block'o'text. If your reading this, though, you can probably already see that. Please read until the end? :x I'll use spacing! The font is big! It won't take long.
So here's the deal:
I'm an 18 y.o. male, and I get obssessed and pulled into things quite easily. Just about any book I read will get me obssessed for a while. I avoid watching new TV shows because I don't want to get pulled in.
Now, I know this may seem pretty normal, but when I say obssessed I mean OBSSESSED [is that word starting to sound weird?]. I spend HOURS and HOURS reading, researching, and thinking about whatever the topic is.
Here's a quick example:
The first time I remember this happening was a few years ago when I read "The Crysallids" [spelling...?]. I picked out a random book for silent reading, and I think it was a Wednesday. We were required to read for 20 minutes at the beggining of each English class. By Friday [60 minutes of reading], I was pretty into it - I took the book home. About 3 hours after getting home I began reading it. And reading it. And then it was 2 AM. I don't know if I finished the book, but just the fact that I read until 2 AM is freaking rediculous. I DID finish the book that weekend, thats for sure. After the book was read, the rest of the weekend [and a good part of the week] was spent googling it, learning things about it, thinking about it, etc, etc. I enjoyed the book, but nowhere near that much. I just ... had this urge to read more, to learn more.
Just about any other book [including some that aren't any good at all] that I've read since then has given me the same result. Luckily, I don't read much books.
Another example is the T.V. show "Heroes." I was on Vacation in another country [family] one summer, and the show was on there weekly - two episodes in a row. After the second week I was freaking hooked [they were the first four episodes I'd ever seen]. I spent hours just reading the plot summaries for the rest of the episodes - a very nice waste of the vacation. I missed out on a few things that I would have enjoyed [although nothing too big]. That wasn't even part of it - fan sites, forums, everything!
It's not that I just get 'hooked' - it becomes an obssession. I think about it when I don't want to. It keeps me up at night. For Heroes, before the vacation was over, I downgraded from obssessed to just a big fan - lasted maybe a month.
I don't think it ever really bothered me too much. Not enough for me to remember, at least.
Recently, and for the first time, I became obssessed with a celebrity. That sort of creeped me out.
When I first heard about this person [maybe 6 months ago?] I didn't pay too much attention. This person then released their second single [I'm going to guess 2 months ago], and just recently she released her third [with just that information, sombody who really knows their stuff can probably guess who it is
]. It was around then when I became a real fan.
And then a week later I went up 5 steps from being a fan. I think it's been three weeks since then, and it's really starting to bother me. I spent about 2 hours just sitting on my couch today trying to 'diagnose' my problem. Unfortunately I'm no therapist and didn't really come to any conclusions. It's not that I just find them attractive - I find a lot of people attractive, and honestly I couldn't care less about whats going on in their life or what happens to them [short of something like death :/].
I spent the next few hours - I have no idea how long, although it could have been up to 5 hours; eats up time without me even realising it - 'interneting' this person.
I can probably go on and on. That was just TODAY.
I don't like it. I don't want to be talking with my friends and have this person jump into my head every few minutes. I don't want to want to talk about this person all the time [you may have to read that one twice]. I don't want to know THIS MUCH information about them!
In addition to all of that, I'm afraid of getting a stalker-like obssession, although due to the physical distance I can gladly say that it's quite impossible... for now.
Partially off topic, how much of a fan can you be before it becomes creepy? How much is too much?
So there's my problem. I think. I've spent like 20 minutes writing that - hopefully it didn't take you anywhere near there to read it.
An answer with the phrase 'go see a therapist' is something I don't want - and I don't think that its anywhere near serious enough for that, anyways.
Thanks ahead!
Before I start, I'd like to point out that this will probably be a huge block'o'text. If your reading this, though, you can probably already see that. Please read until the end? :x I'll use spacing! The font is big! It won't take long.
So here's the deal:
I'm an 18 y.o. male, and I get obssessed and pulled into things quite easily. Just about any book I read will get me obssessed for a while. I avoid watching new TV shows because I don't want to get pulled in.
Now, I know this may seem pretty normal, but when I say obssessed I mean OBSSESSED [is that word starting to sound weird?]. I spend HOURS and HOURS reading, researching, and thinking about whatever the topic is.
Here's a quick example:
The first time I remember this happening was a few years ago when I read "The Crysallids" [spelling...?]. I picked out a random book for silent reading, and I think it was a Wednesday. We were required to read for 20 minutes at the beggining of each English class. By Friday [60 minutes of reading], I was pretty into it - I took the book home. About 3 hours after getting home I began reading it. And reading it. And then it was 2 AM. I don't know if I finished the book, but just the fact that I read until 2 AM is freaking rediculous. I DID finish the book that weekend, thats for sure. After the book was read, the rest of the weekend [and a good part of the week] was spent googling it, learning things about it, thinking about it, etc, etc. I enjoyed the book, but nowhere near that much. I just ... had this urge to read more, to learn more.
Just about any other book [including some that aren't any good at all] that I've read since then has given me the same result. Luckily, I don't read much books.
Another example is the T.V. show "Heroes." I was on Vacation in another country [family] one summer, and the show was on there weekly - two episodes in a row. After the second week I was freaking hooked [they were the first four episodes I'd ever seen]. I spent hours just reading the plot summaries for the rest of the episodes - a very nice waste of the vacation. I missed out on a few things that I would have enjoyed [although nothing too big]. That wasn't even part of it - fan sites, forums, everything!
It's not that I just get 'hooked' - it becomes an obssession. I think about it when I don't want to. It keeps me up at night. For Heroes, before the vacation was over, I downgraded from obssessed to just a big fan - lasted maybe a month.
I don't think it ever really bothered me too much. Not enough for me to remember, at least.
Recently, and for the first time, I became obssessed with a celebrity. That sort of creeped me out.
When I first heard about this person [maybe 6 months ago?] I didn't pay too much attention. This person then released their second single [I'm going to guess 2 months ago], and just recently she released her third [with just that information, sombody who really knows their stuff can probably guess who it is
]. It was around then when I became a real fan.And then a week later I went up 5 steps from being a fan. I think it's been three weeks since then, and it's really starting to bother me. I spent about 2 hours just sitting on my couch today trying to 'diagnose' my problem. Unfortunately I'm no therapist and didn't really come to any conclusions. It's not that I just find them attractive - I find a lot of people attractive, and honestly I couldn't care less about whats going on in their life or what happens to them [short of something like death :/].
I spent the next few hours - I have no idea how long, although it could have been up to 5 hours; eats up time without me even realising it - 'interneting' this person.
I can probably go on and on. That was just TODAY.
I don't like it. I don't want to be talking with my friends and have this person jump into my head every few minutes. I don't want to want to talk about this person all the time [you may have to read that one twice]. I don't want to know THIS MUCH information about them!
In addition to all of that, I'm afraid of getting a stalker-like obssession, although due to the physical distance I can gladly say that it's quite impossible... for now.
Partially off topic, how much of a fan can you be before it becomes creepy? How much is too much?
So there's my problem. I think. I've spent like 20 minutes writing that - hopefully it didn't take you anywhere near there to read it.
An answer with the phrase 'go see a therapist' is something I don't want - and I don't think that its anywhere near serious enough for that, anyways.
Thanks ahead!