The Axeman
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(PLEASE read it all) My girlfriend (or ex I should say) of 7 months did some pretty bad stuff that she regrets. we're both 16. It was BEFORE she even knew me, though.She had sent nude pictures to like 4 guys before. She never dated them and they're pretty much all in our school. She was feeling lonely at the time and made a stupid mistake. She thought it would get the guys to like her back. The pictures aren't circulated, because it seems no one really knows about it, but they DID get to my friends. Only some though. They don't seem to care anymore, but I did have to tell them to drop it before.
The thing is, she regrets all of it so much. She's a completely new person but she still cries over it sometimes and even used to hurt herself over it. She hates herself for it.
Recently I even I found a picture of her shirtless on facebook, with bra and jeans and it was taken a long time ago and it was partially buried in her photos. and it was taken by her cousin who was just making faces at the camera with her in the background changing shirts. She was covered a little though and it was in black and white.It didn't get any comments or anything, but this was pretty much the last straw for me.
All of this bothered me so much to the point when I was only happy when I was with her physically. Other than that I was stressed out, depressed, and I just couldn't get the thought of all those guys AND some of my friends seeing my girlfriend naked and stuff out of my head. All of this gets me overthinking. For instance, how she was involved with one guy on my track team and also liked someoneo my track team in 8th grade. (but never did anything with) PLUS my friends seeing the pictures. Am I just overthinking it or is her past actually intertwined with my life?
A couple nights ago I told her we're taking a break because of how stressed I was over it and now she feels crushed. She feels like a piece of **** that's unloveable. she tried hiding it from me today but I found out that she's hurting herself again. This makes me feel terrible. but I don't know if I want to be with her again to deal with that emotional baggage. I made it clear to her that the break up was about me and not her. A bunch of my friends said it was really stupid of me to dump her. But now I'm STILL stressed because I'm confused with whether I want her still or not. But then again I don't want to be so depressed again like when I was with her. I definitely trust her and it's obvious she loves me and she still does. I have feelings for her too it's just they aren't as strong since the beginning of our relationship because of the nudes. If I like her, do I go back to her and try harder to deal with it or should I just keep my decision to give up on her? She says that it's not fair that life is still punishing her for this because she regrets it more than she can and she tried her hardest to change herself. AND she's telling me that she just wants me back and she says she needs me. She was my longest relationship. Help, please.
The thing is, she regrets all of it so much. She's a completely new person but she still cries over it sometimes and even used to hurt herself over it. She hates herself for it.
Recently I even I found a picture of her shirtless on facebook, with bra and jeans and it was taken a long time ago and it was partially buried in her photos. and it was taken by her cousin who was just making faces at the camera with her in the background changing shirts. She was covered a little though and it was in black and white.It didn't get any comments or anything, but this was pretty much the last straw for me.
All of this bothered me so much to the point when I was only happy when I was with her physically. Other than that I was stressed out, depressed, and I just couldn't get the thought of all those guys AND some of my friends seeing my girlfriend naked and stuff out of my head. All of this gets me overthinking. For instance, how she was involved with one guy on my track team and also liked someoneo my track team in 8th grade. (but never did anything with) PLUS my friends seeing the pictures. Am I just overthinking it or is her past actually intertwined with my life?
A couple nights ago I told her we're taking a break because of how stressed I was over it and now she feels crushed. She feels like a piece of **** that's unloveable. she tried hiding it from me today but I found out that she's hurting herself again. This makes me feel terrible. but I don't know if I want to be with her again to deal with that emotional baggage. I made it clear to her that the break up was about me and not her. A bunch of my friends said it was really stupid of me to dump her. But now I'm STILL stressed because I'm confused with whether I want her still or not. But then again I don't want to be so depressed again like when I was with her. I definitely trust her and it's obvious she loves me and she still does. I have feelings for her too it's just they aren't as strong since the beginning of our relationship because of the nudes. If I like her, do I go back to her and try harder to deal with it or should I just keep my decision to give up on her? She says that it's not fair that life is still punishing her for this because she regrets it more than she can and she tried her hardest to change herself. AND she's telling me that she just wants me back and she says she needs me. She was my longest relationship. Help, please.