Future Olympic Ice Dancer
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I'm really unattractive. I'm from Azerbaijan, so the people there tend to be a little hairier than average. I have bushy eyebrows I'm not allowed to wax until I get married, I have a weird nose, weird lips, and I have a little stomach. I'm not obese or anything, just a little pouch, but it's big enough so that I'm not classified as "skinny". Skinny, in my book, means you have a flat stomach, which I don't. I have a mustache, which I'm forbidden to wax until I'm in college. It's not fair! Some people are so pretty and then there are under average people like me. I'm 14 years old, and there's this guy I like. I heard guys are attracted to confidence, so I laugh a lot and smile and try to appear confident when I'm around him. I'm pretty sure guys are attracted to beauty too, not JUST confidence. And I don't have beauty. My self esteem has gone up a little. It took around three years for me not to completely hate my face, for me to stop being so depressed. I want to speed it up. I want to be completely confident, but I just can't!
Another guy I like told me I look like this girl (the girl is very pretty) but when I looked at her, I don't look like her at all! So was he complimenting me? And my friends keep saying I'm pretty but that's only because they're my friends, and friends in general seem pretty to me. I don't see my friends as ugly. They're either pretty or just there. Do you know what I mean?
The only think I like about myself are my boobs. (Yeah, I know). They're Cs.
Why am I so ugly? It's not fair at all! I have a stupid lisp, it's not really noticeable, but people have commented about it.
The guy I like smiles at me when I talk to him, but that's probably because I'm smiling at him like an idiot, and he doesn't want to offend me. Also, once we were doing a lab in chemistry, and I had to hold a stick over a fire so that it caught on fire, and I wasn't holding it right. The guy I like put his hand over mine and fixed the way I was holding it. He probably thinks nothing of it, but I was screaming inside. But it's pointless, because can't get someone like that. I'm too ugly for him. My stupid mustache detracts what little self esteem I have. I've talked to my mom, cried at her, yelled at her, and it still hasn't budged her one bit! So talking to her is out. I just really want to look and feel average!! Isn't there anyone in the same situation as me? I feel like I'm the only one!
Another guy I like told me I look like this girl (the girl is very pretty) but when I looked at her, I don't look like her at all! So was he complimenting me? And my friends keep saying I'm pretty but that's only because they're my friends, and friends in general seem pretty to me. I don't see my friends as ugly. They're either pretty or just there. Do you know what I mean?
The only think I like about myself are my boobs. (Yeah, I know). They're Cs.
Why am I so ugly? It's not fair at all! I have a stupid lisp, it's not really noticeable, but people have commented about it.
The guy I like smiles at me when I talk to him, but that's probably because I'm smiling at him like an idiot, and he doesn't want to offend me. Also, once we were doing a lab in chemistry, and I had to hold a stick over a fire so that it caught on fire, and I wasn't holding it right. The guy I like put his hand over mine and fixed the way I was holding it. He probably thinks nothing of it, but I was screaming inside. But it's pointless, because can't get someone like that. I'm too ugly for him. My stupid mustache detracts what little self esteem I have. I've talked to my mom, cried at her, yelled at her, and it still hasn't budged her one bit! So talking to her is out. I just really want to look and feel average!! Isn't there anyone in the same situation as me? I feel like I'm the only one!