Okay well first of this is a question that i need serious answers to, mainly by people who kind of know what there talking about. No Horrible answers please. thanks.
Well, it all started about 3 years ago when i became very very poorly, i had all the symptoms of severe depression and anxiety, as things progressed i became even more ill, my entire life changed and i just wasnt myself, you people who have depression know how it effects your life so badly, theres no point in going through it all, but yeah anyway..
I was referred to a mental health thing called CAMHS and they did indeed diagnose me with severe depression and anxiety, things then deterioated and i started hearing and seeing things and becoming very paranoid, they changed my hole medications from just anti depressants to anti psychotics too, i was then referred to a hospital the ealry intervention team where i was tested for schitzofrenia and other mental disorders, i was then diagnosed with psychosis and depression still with anxiety,
THEN things went from bad to worse, i was shuved in a mental hospital for overdosing too many times and locked away for abit, i then was tested for bipolar, because i swear to this dying day i am bipolar.
I have ALL the symptoms of it and im scared that they havnt diagnosed me propaly, my psyciatrist is a complete tool who doesnt know what hes talking about! he actually tells me one thing one time and another the next time, my old psyciatrist did diagnose me with bipolar until my new one changed it again.
I have manic all the time and depression still, i know i shouldnt but i have stopped taking my medication to test what im like of it, to see if i still act bipolar, the answers, yes i do.
in detail anyway, when in manic, i just feel great i feel on top of the world like im on drugs and floating, i feel the bestever i feel as though nothing can touch me and i feel as though everything is a blur, everything will be okay and everyhing is okay and that there is nothing wrong, although i do scare myself sometimes, i get really voilent and bite people and find it hilarious, words cant describe how great it is.
On the other hand when im depressed i feel like shite. The world is a complete diffrent place, everything seems so bleek, suicidal thoughts twenty 4 7 constant crying and self harming. you know what depression brings so i wont blabber on.
Anyway my question is, i want to be tested again because things are just not right, why would i be acting like this if i was not bipolar?
can i get a second opinion? my doc is on materinty leave and she is really the only one i can trust to ask, she wont be back till jan should i wait till then to ask her to refer me to somebody else?
because im just very scared im not being treated right.
thanks x
Is there a doc outhere who can give me any advice or who i can mail? x
Well, it all started about 3 years ago when i became very very poorly, i had all the symptoms of severe depression and anxiety, as things progressed i became even more ill, my entire life changed and i just wasnt myself, you people who have depression know how it effects your life so badly, theres no point in going through it all, but yeah anyway..
I was referred to a mental health thing called CAMHS and they did indeed diagnose me with severe depression and anxiety, things then deterioated and i started hearing and seeing things and becoming very paranoid, they changed my hole medications from just anti depressants to anti psychotics too, i was then referred to a hospital the ealry intervention team where i was tested for schitzofrenia and other mental disorders, i was then diagnosed with psychosis and depression still with anxiety,
THEN things went from bad to worse, i was shuved in a mental hospital for overdosing too many times and locked away for abit, i then was tested for bipolar, because i swear to this dying day i am bipolar.
I have ALL the symptoms of it and im scared that they havnt diagnosed me propaly, my psyciatrist is a complete tool who doesnt know what hes talking about! he actually tells me one thing one time and another the next time, my old psyciatrist did diagnose me with bipolar until my new one changed it again.
I have manic all the time and depression still, i know i shouldnt but i have stopped taking my medication to test what im like of it, to see if i still act bipolar, the answers, yes i do.
in detail anyway, when in manic, i just feel great i feel on top of the world like im on drugs and floating, i feel the bestever i feel as though nothing can touch me and i feel as though everything is a blur, everything will be okay and everyhing is okay and that there is nothing wrong, although i do scare myself sometimes, i get really voilent and bite people and find it hilarious, words cant describe how great it is.
On the other hand when im depressed i feel like shite. The world is a complete diffrent place, everything seems so bleek, suicidal thoughts twenty 4 7 constant crying and self harming. you know what depression brings so i wont blabber on.
Anyway my question is, i want to be tested again because things are just not right, why would i be acting like this if i was not bipolar?
can i get a second opinion? my doc is on materinty leave and she is really the only one i can trust to ask, she wont be back till jan should i wait till then to ask her to refer me to somebody else?
because im just very scared im not being treated right.
thanks x
Is there a doc outhere who can give me any advice or who i can mail? x