Well...im 16 and i have been having lesbian thoughts lately. and its REALLY bothering me. i have always thought i was straight, and have fallen deeply in love with about 3 guys in my lifetime, never any girls. However, when i look back on my childhood, i guess i have always been a bit of a tomboy. I always hung out with the guys, did guy things like play pokemon and run around.....i never really dressed that girly. But i always looked at the other girls, and wished i could be more like them.... i always thought they were so much prettier. i never had crushes on them, i actually had guy crushes when i was little, but it really has been bothering me how much of a tomboy i was. And just about 2 months ago... i started having these gay thoughts when i think of getting physical with another girl. I have had a boyfriend since mid july and it is a guy i was really in love with. but since these thoughts have occurred...im not sure anymore.. these thoughts are taking over my mind. and when i sleep over my friend's house, we sometimes cuddle and she even gave me a hickey when i was trying to sleep once.......but it didnt really turn me on or anything....and ive never thought of being a lesbian of it till these thoughts started occurring like.. "why would i do that if i wasnt lesbian" or.. "do i feel like i want to kiss her?" or even.. "Yea i would like to kiss her...that would turn me on" and its really bothering me. i just want all these thoughts to go away. I miss being happy with my boyfriend. and yes, i have talked about all this with my mother/father and they said they'd be perfectly fine with me if i was gay, same with my friends too, but the thing is, i dont want to be. i mean do NOT get me wrong, i have a few gay/bi friends and i have NOTHING against gay people. but im just not comfortable with being with another woman.
.....i just want these thoughts to go away..... maybe its normal teenage hormones doing this to me? .....i dunno. what do you think?
.....i just want these thoughts to go away..... maybe its normal teenage hormones doing this to me? .....i dunno. what do you think?