I'm really feeling stupid. tapering again...

  • Thread starter Thread starter stevecolorado
  • Start date Start date
S

stevecolorado

Guest
hey denon,
thanks for your upbeat worRAB. i have not gone down any more today, i wanted to but i had to work so i took the normal dose. i called my doctor and he said "just stop, you really went on that much". now i feel like a weak ***hole. i did not abuse this drug but it was enough to get me hooked and now i feel like i am going crazy. i called a old girlfriend and told her what was going on. she is the only one i can trust to not judge me and help support me during this ugly process. the mussel pain is a killer, did that happen to you? headaches? bad diarrhea?
thanks everyone...
 
I'm amazed how little doctors know about Opiates and withdrawals. My doctor said the same thing - just stop - I guess they missed that part of medical school on Opiate withdrawals.

Yes - the muscle aches were the worse, along with the insomnia and also the shaking. But, I found out afterward that the shaking I was experiencing was because of a different problem, so I don't know if that was a real withdrawal or not. I still have the abdominal muscle shaking problem 5 months later, but it appears that it is from T5 pushing up against my spinal cord, which might have occurred because of all of the time I spent in bed on my back.

I tapered too fast and I ended up with the bad withdrawals - but if you can handle them, then the better you are to get off of the drug faster. My withdrawals were less in the daytime, because I kept busy. At night when I wanted to sleep is when I noticed them the worse. I used Unisom to help sleep, as well as Valium to take the edge off when it got bad. Now, I can look back on those days and remind myself that I never want to experience that ever again!!!
 
well i really made a big leap off the ultram/tramdol today. 1pill all day and nothing tonight. my body felt pain and i could not stop moving around but i did not get sick and i was not stapled to the toilet all day!!! progress, i guess. i drank about a gallon of gatorade and walked my dog until he looked up at me and said with his huge eye 'can-we go home already!!!" so i am home with some tea, a low dose off mussel relax-or, a salad and a stupid movie to get my mind off of me. i did not share yet at my home group but i know i will once i get past this ugly phase of the withdrawal. all the support of this board has made it possible. i am thinking about righting my doctor a letter but i think he will-blow it off like i am some stupid druggy.
how you all doing?
steve
 
Hi all:(.
I will try to keep it short. I have had a year clean off drugs and have been feeling great. Treatment was hard and the withdrawal was a killer. 7 weeks ago I got hit on my bike and hurt my neck. My doc gave me a medication that he said was non addictive. It called Ultram. I have been taking it as prescribed and it helped with the pain a lot, no high feeling just a bit tired. Well I decided I wanted to stop about 4 days ago. I did not take my morning does and by early evening I was cold, sweating, could not keep food down, thought of hopelessness, pain all over, crawling all over skin, headache, and deep depression with anxiety. I went online and read about my drug--- it is a opiate!!!! I feel so stupid so very stupid for not looking into it before I started. So I am going to have to tapper very slowly and I cant believe I am doing this again. I feel really sick. I was taking 4 pills a day and for the last 3 days have only taken 3 a day. if ANY of my famlie found out about this 'pickel" i got myself into again they would never talk to me, my life would be HELL. What was tapering like for you and how did you do it? I don
 
Good for you! Every day your body heals itself a little and you get used to less of the drug. Keep up the good work!!
 
You aren't stupid. It is cunning baffling poweful. I have tapered off of percs 3 times now and am back on them. You can do it. Just don't take the first pill. good luck.
 
its 2 in the morning and i cant sleep. my anxiety is over moon and my thoughts are dark. i am going to get in with a doctor tomorrow and get some help with this. i cant do it alone. the pain and hopeless feels like it is going to engulf me. i am only down 1 of the 4 pills i was taking. at this rate i will run out before a tapering is finished. i even had thoughts of drinking last night. i know that would make this 100 times worse. i also thought about trying to buy more drugs online without a scrip, never thought of that befor. guess i am tying to say that feel off the wall. any worRAB of people relating would help.
steve
 
i REALLY thought the worst was over, i just hit 24 hours from my last tiny dose and i cant move. everything hurts, so sleepy and cant stop crying. please let me know if this is normal part of the last dose. i want to go to the er but they will only give me more drugs. cant tell my frienRAB because that would put them oven the top. my stomic is killing me. i'm going to make myself go for a walk and just cry. tomorrow has to be better right? i know i wounld weak, sorry
 
The aches and pains were the worse for me too - especially in my legs. My whole body ached and I would walk around the house because when I laid down I would shake and become extremely anxious. So, I'd walk around the house until I was bouncing off the walls down the hallway because I was so tired. It's part of your body starting to heal. This is the part of the withdrawals that you need to remeraber that will help to keep you from relapsing. I still can remeraber the pain I was in during that time and it keeps me from wanting to go through that again. Unfortunately, there's no easy cure for it and it will last 3-5 days for most people. Your doctor can prescribe Valium or something similar to help take the edge off, which is what I took for a few days.
 
The drug will tell you all sorts of things to convince you to start taking them again. You have to be tougher than the drug. Seeing your doctor is a good idea to help you through this process. They can prescribe other meRAB that can help during the detox. If you doctor is unfamiliar with the detox process, ask them to refer you to someone that is more knowledgeable. My doctor readily admitted to me that I know more about Opiates and the detox process involved than he does. Many doctors just don't see it that often and just are not familiar with it and what to do. You're heading in the right direction by seeking out advice and help. Keep it up!!
 
First of all quit beating yourself up. When Ultram came out it was heavily marketed to doctors as non-addictive and appropriate for patients with substance abuse histories. Having been where you are I can tell you that this will be ok. Fall back on what you learned in treatment. IF you have a sponsor call him/her and work a First step on this it will help. After this is all over don't take anything that you have't checked out first. Most treatment centers ahve some kind of aftercare or alumni groups that you should be able to drop by and attend for free.

Peace and Namaste

Hppygr8ful
 
thanks denon,
just like you i seem to do ok during the day but as soon as i get home i feel like hell. i will ask my doctor for something for the anxiety and nausea. i think i can deal with the physical pain i just cant keep feeling like i am going to jump out of my skin. i have been pushing myself to walk even thought i dread it- your right it does help to move my body. i have yet to take my last dose- i am going to try my hardest to skit it, then i wil be alf way through my tapering. i cant wait to flush this JUNK down the toilet!!!!!!!!!!
i hope the doctor will help me today! he knows i am a addict so i hope that does not stop him for working with me.
thanks!!!
 
your doing great and your half way there! this time next week you will feel like a new man, sorta :)
 
Hey Steve! Don't you just love doctors that don't tell you about the meRAB that they prescribe?? I learned my lesson when I was prescribed Percocets for a neck injury and once the pain was gone I stopped taking them. Lo and behold - guess what? I found out I was addicted to them and had severe w/d's. I never knew anything about Oxycodone or Percocets until I went on-line and started reading about them to find out I was experiencing withdrawals.

From now on when a doctor hanRAB me a prescription, I always go and look it up online and read all about it before I take it. We just can't rely on doctors to tell us the information that we need anymore. Also, when I get a new prescription, I always ask the Pharmacist if it will interact with any of the other meRAB that I'm taking or if I need to take it at a different time than certain meRAB. I guess ultimately, the responsibility lies on us to know what we are putting into our body.

I feel sorry for anyone going through withdrawals!! I paid my price and I wish that on nobody! Tapering is the best plan, as you know. If you can talk to a doctor or go to an out-patient clinic, there are some other meRAB that can help you reduce the w/d symptoms. If you can detox on your own slowly, then you can keep it hidden away from your family, just remeraber when you are getting down to the end you will need to break pills in pieces to continue to taper down. Dropping one pill at a time is a pretty big jump for your body to take.

I wish you the best!
 
im off im off im off!!!!! that was one hell of a weekend i hope never have to to-that again. i still feel depressed and a bit weak but its getting better thank you so much! you guys saved me from a 2000 dollar trip to the detox!!!!!!!
rock on!
steve
 
hi all,i thought about all your worRAB tonight as i was so tempted to just take a small amount of the ultram before dinner. but i did not and i am glad. i was unable to keep my dinner down :(, but i am feeling a bit better. the physical pain seems to come in waves. its been 7 hours since my last dose so i think my body is craving pretty bad. i forgot how bad this feels, its like having the flu all the way into my bones. can i keep writing you during this process? it feels good to know at least someone in the world knows i am doing my best...
steve Sick in colorado
 
Yes - keep writing us and let us know how you are doing.

I know about feeling like you have the flu. I ached so bad during my withdrawals and I just walked and walked to help pass the time. The pain I went through during my withdrawals is what keeps me clean today. I don't want to go through that again!!

You're on your way to recovery. We're all pulling for you!
 
Back
Top