I'm reading the book "Lolita" and I have a crush on Professor Humbert. Is that weird?

[Jasmine]

i'm reading the book lolita by vladimir nabokov.. i know its supposed to be a dark story about the loss of innocence but sometimes i get carried away and i cant help but think some of it is romantic in a strange way. lolita reminds me of me. ive always been attracted to older men ever since i can remember. i can understand why she liked humbert. she didn't have a dad growing up and she wanted the love and attention of someone important in her life. even though professor humbert was a pervert and what he did was totally wrong and immoral.. i still liked him. i want a guy to love me the way he loved lolita. he was a dad to her and he took care of her. he treated her like she was special, the most perfect girl in the world, and he was obsessed with her. he loved her truly. like in the end how he says "i looked and looked her..and i knew as surely as i know that i will die..i loved her more than anything i'd seen or imagined on earth" and "i would still go mad with tenderness at the mere sight of her face". humbert is my idea of the perfect man. i know it sounds strange but he is. i wish i was lolita.