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futureinfinance07

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Yep here's my first full on post. So here goes.

I'm so fucking sick of life. SICK SICK SICK. Sure there's fun things to do, which I do AS MUCH as possible, but most of it is just SHIT. It could be worse, hell it can always be worse, so who gives a shit about that argument? I'm living in a tourist town is the USA, and the job market tops out about 2 bucks above minimum wage. The cost of living is skyrocketing, and I can't save a DIME to move. I have a wife and a 17 year old daughter. Both of whom I love dearly, but they drive me nuts most of the time. I've got some outlets but I just had it with having 10 hours a week of fun and 158 of crap.

I'm American, and not always proud of it. I served honorable in the first Gulf War back in 1990. I got out of the service because we killed more of our own soldiers than anyone, and for that matter more of everyone's soldiers. Too dangerous and I don't like to fear my own troops more than the enemy.
I hate the current state of american expansionism.

I'm not Republican or Democrat. They both have their flaws and I wish we could get more than two sides to every argument. I hate the rich lawyer bastards equally.

I'm spiritual but Highly Anti-Organized Religion. I'm tired of the Xtians always acting like they rule. They don't. I'm tired of the intolerance. Tired of the sexism. Tired of Religion as a whole.

I'm for Abortion, but I'm also against Gun Control. I don't have a simple moral outlook. I don't fit in a box.

I am so fucking tired of people acting Evil. If the fuckers would just see that if they treat people with one iota of respect or care, they might make the world a better place. Instead people are assholes 24/7. They are the problem and yet the cry out how people make them that way. Catch 22.

I live in a fucking Trailer Park for crying out loud. So do most of the people who grew up around here and didn't get property handed down to them. With income stagnant but property having BOOMED on the order of triple price in 7 years, nobody living on these wages gets anywhere. All the assholes from the City sell their houses and then flood our market with cash. So the fuckers move in, bring their shitty kids, and now we actually have fucking Gangs and Drive Bys and Car Jackings right here in Bumfuck nowhere. It's not like the locals are any better, but at least they tried to limit it to petty shit. This new breed of heartless assholes flooding this town is enough to make be start packing again.

I have lived all over. I grew up split between Chicago and Califonia. I've also lived in NY and in Germany for a few years each. I decided to settle here in shitville with my highschool sweetheart because I wasn't smart enough to persuade her to fucking leave, she fought me tooth and nail. Now that's we're poor and have no way to leave, she seems like she might not mind. Typical woman huh guys?

All in all I'm as miserable and fucked up as most, and just as fucking tired of it. Oh and let me just get this out of the way, Suicide is not an option for me, so thanks for the thought, but no.
 
Well fuck.

Yup. That's all I have to say man.

You made me feel better about my unemployed ass. I don't have a wife or any kids so if anyone is driving me nuts it's me. Wow, my life doesn't suck nearly as bad as yours. (No offence)

Thanks dude.
 
Well, if it's any consolation, I like your style. I know that's not going to improve the quality of your life, but you seem like a good person and even though saying this probably won't help any, it would be a good thing in my book if your life improved.

Two cents.
 
Preach on, brother! :thumbsup: :thumbsup: :thumbsup: :thumbsup: :thumbsup:


You deserve a big wet kiss. More folks agree with you than you might think. Props on speaking your mind. Moreover, I highly suggest that you take this improptu little essay and submit it to public radio, which is reviving a series called "This I Believe..." which men and women from all walks of life share their ideas and principles about life in America.
 
well, you're in the right forum, that's for damn sure.

anywho, here's a list of common stress relievers...

1. punching bag, or whatever's around
2. jerk it (not joking)
3. scream, shout, yell, whatever
4. sleep
5. running
6. posting on WTF!

try them all. they work :thumbsup:
 
Luckily I have some outlets to my stress or you'd probably be seeing me on the news in the bad way (mostly joking). I have 2 groups of buds I get to see one night each per week. We drink and play and have a blast. Even the wife and kid can be cool when they wanna. Still....

Life Sucks.
 
I feel ya' JXLC. I've lived on 2 coasts in the US, Germany for a few years and did a few years in the Army. I inheritted a lack of financial wealth and figured education was the key to a better life. I used every penny I had to go to college, got a degree and discovered that a BS in Computer Science is about as usefull as a pair of Double-D tits on a nun. It's a shitty time to be an American.
 
Dont worry man, there are millions of people in your situations and alot more are in worse situation but neither of that helps you and i think you allready knew it so all i have to say is wait out. Change might come in your lifetime or maybe it wont, there is no way to tell, depends on the financing and number of new people coming to power. I myself moved to Canada from basically nowhere, pissed poor post soviet satelite nation. I had a part time job, just enough to pay my share for appartment. Well my parents found people like us and now we have a busyness running and live in a house. You know what some of my friends do to make money? His 21 btw and aint no rocket scientist. Well all he does is just sit in his chair for hours starring at the sealing. He comes up with all sorts of shit, from faking shoppers gift cards to providing jacket rogers cable television for cheaper price. You need 3 things to survive in your situation: knowledge ( im not talking about qualification and degress but just some basics of how comerical and service things work, or you can pick your own field), then you need ideas (anyone can have those when they have knowledge) and 3rd is you need peole you can trust and those are people that are in the same boat as you. Having all those things you have 70% guranteed sucess. Good luck man, remember youre a man, a most roughless and adaptable being on a planet. Youre like a sticky shit that you can never get off your shoes. Remember that :)
 
i can relate to you. i live in bumsville canada, i hate where i live, i hate my job (but i'm take classes), i too live in a trailor(double wide;) fancey trailor park girl. i have 2 girls, single mom, love my kids to peices although i get to the point where i just want to give up on everything. just throw everything in the air and yell I QUIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my kids are on a lets control mom kick. i don't go out, i stay home and live on the net mostly, i don't see my friends offten, i rarely go out to the bar(local singles club) and IF their father accually offers to take them for the night, my kids have the nerve to grill me as to what i'm doing and accually have a "tone" when they do. so i can understand where you come from. alls i can say is you do what you got to do.
 
Nymphchick said:
i get to the point where i just want to give up on everything. just throw everything in the air and yell I QUIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can relate to that. I've been there. That point where you realize that if you just walk out the door today you can disappear and just start over. That still appeals to me. Just up and leaving everything behind, breaking off all contact and just finding a new life someplace.

Of course I won't. It's nice to dream about but we all realize that we're just creating more probs that way.
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Thanks all. Misery loves company and all that.

To be honest, I REALLY like the good things in my life, I treasure them. My friends, my family (wife, kid, and cat), and I find enjoyment in gaming and the internet. As down as I feel, everyone in my life tells me that I'm the most upbeat and fun guy to hang out with, hell I am invitied (and go!) to many parties and movies and all sorts of things. I try to just let it go, enjoy the moments, and apparently I do a good job.

Deep inside I feel the dark. My wife and closest friends know, but I seem to be able to put up a good wall against the world. I also know it's worse for many others. I have love in my life, I have a good time when I can, hell I'm living the life! I could be rich, but then I'd have to spend even more time away from that which I care about, so fuck that. I'll just ride the ride until my ticket expires, and be content in that.

The suffering I see though, I can't go numb to. It's such a rough and mean fucking world. I help people when I can, but it's never enough. I never have enough to give, so I give that which I have in abundance.... me. It has to be enough.
 
Dude i understand what you mean. You're a giver. I'm a giver to. You just wanna help where you can, but you get sucked dry. It's like if you have to care about one more problem some other person has then you'll go fucking ballistic. It's a tough life man, but remember that I'm sure you make living easier for a lot of other people.
 
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