caiterbugcnk
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I feel like i don't know who i am and i just... i need to do self searching. does anyone know how to do some sort of anything? Just to find out who I am and who I need to be for myself and the people around me? the praying thing i've tried but you see religion is another thing im confused about i mean i find myself questioning things like the bible right and wrong, the truth everything in general really i really dont even know were to begin I really dont want to fight with my mom i feel like i need her more than anyone right now, and honestly i feel like im shuting everyone out, even my friends who I WANT to talk to i just.. its almost like i dont find the need or will power really. I dont even talk to my boyfriend anymore. i like the journal idea to, but thats another thing i dont have, and on that too i have no idea were to start. I've tried to read the chicken soup books but i just couldnt get into it. music and photography has really became my life now. i also cant stand movies or books really because im just so sick of fake romance i mean that will NEVER happen. I mean the actors who play these amazing guys dont even act that way. and honestly every story you will ever watch or read will have romance. Fast&the furious. Heck Even the Hangover had romance at the end. I mean the smallest things get on my nerves i feel like im pmsing ALL THE FREAKING TIME and honestly im growing to hate myself. I hate asking my mom for anything because money is so horrible right now. And by me shoplifting i caused her more finacial problems with my fines and stuff like that court is monday and im gonna find out how much i owe her. im getting a job but honestly i am in no mood to be taking ordes from people i dont know. i probably sound like a stuck up teenager but thats just how i feel. but anyways i honestly felt that by stealing i was doing the right thing because i wasnt taking money from her and alyssa but i just ended taking more, im so lost i just honestly dont know anymore. please reply back as soon a you can. -Caitlyn