Okay there is this girl I've met awhile couple months ago, she knows a lot of what going to happen with me. Never ever thought about her ever because she has a boyfriend. Well apparently she was attracted to me, because I was really nice to her and apparently I'm really cute to her. We hung out here and there, it wasn't till her friend told me that she had like me.
Well there was a really drunk night (btw I know right from wrong when drunk), she came on to me near the end of the night. Which I didn't stop it... Since she made the first move. Lucky it didn't go to far. Which after that night we didn't really talk nor see each for awhile, because of what happen that night. Then she broke up with her boyfriend and called me a week after she broke up with him. So we hung out the day after she called me. I thought everything was fine since nothing really went wrong. I didn't try anything at all because of what was going on. I giving her space and going at her pace. Then another week go by we didn't talk really nor see each other. I found out from the same friend that told me that she liked me, that she had gone back to her ex. Just because I was leaving in December and I'll be gone for 6 years.
The thing is though, she would be leaving to go down to Orlando, Florida and go to a college down there, I would be stationed in Pensacola, Florida for about a year or so for my schooling before I'm shipped out. I would seriously take any chance I get to go see her, and she knows this. So I know I we could build something out this for a while. She just doesn't want to take the risk of me leaving sometime down the road for a while, then be killed while in the service. I know people always say never date someone that did stuff behind the other person back, but for this girl and the way I felt I don't mind taking that risk. I do know that if it does happen to me.. I would not take her back.
Personally I've fallen in love twice before her. The first girl I lost her because I was being stupid and shy. The 2nd time I fell in love, we broke up because of few complicated things can't go into details. This time I felt something I haven't felt from any other girl in a long time. I've almost given up on trying to find anyone at all and just say fuck it, since most of the girls i've dated were bullshitting.
Till things happen between me this one. She feels really bad for all that has happen between us and that a reason why she barely talks to me right now. She didn't mean to lead me on at all. She texted me about 2 weeks later asking why things were so awkward between us, didn't respond because I wasn't sure what to say. Then a week after we she texted me again and said she couldn't get me out of her head and she wanted to see me. Did the same thing wasn't sure what to say but about 2-3 hours later I sent her a message.
Saying "How do I know your not lying"
She replayed with "I shouldn't have said anything, sorry I did. I just wanted to get it off my chest"
Me "It happens. You'll be fine..."
Her "Never said I wouldn't be fine. It just hard for me to not speak my mind and I've wanted to say something but I've kept it in. ugh"
Me "Your not the only one.. I say it might be much easier to say it in person, but that me"
her "well ive wanted to and still have stuff to say. Just haven't had the opportunity to. didn't think you wanted to see/talk to me."
Which at this point, I completely change the topic and ask her if she had and basket ball. Told her to come to the park.
We met up played a few games and talked like we use too.
Then as we were about to leave, there was literally a stand off for about 20-30 mins. Before she couldn't wait anymore and said are you going to kiss me or not.
Really at the same time when she text me that she wanted to see me, I was about to do the same thing and text her. But I knew I shouldn't. I really still can not get her out of my damn mind. I swear it like a flu or something.
I'm not sure what to do at all.. I want to be with her, but at the same time I don't because she does have the point that I'm leaving and I really wouldn't want her to worry about me. Nor do I really wanna worry about her, when I'm gone.
Any question or confusion about what I've said let me know I'll try to clear it up.
Well there was a really drunk night (btw I know right from wrong when drunk), she came on to me near the end of the night. Which I didn't stop it... Since she made the first move. Lucky it didn't go to far. Which after that night we didn't really talk nor see each for awhile, because of what happen that night. Then she broke up with her boyfriend and called me a week after she broke up with him. So we hung out the day after she called me. I thought everything was fine since nothing really went wrong. I didn't try anything at all because of what was going on. I giving her space and going at her pace. Then another week go by we didn't talk really nor see each other. I found out from the same friend that told me that she liked me, that she had gone back to her ex. Just because I was leaving in December and I'll be gone for 6 years.
The thing is though, she would be leaving to go down to Orlando, Florida and go to a college down there, I would be stationed in Pensacola, Florida for about a year or so for my schooling before I'm shipped out. I would seriously take any chance I get to go see her, and she knows this. So I know I we could build something out this for a while. She just doesn't want to take the risk of me leaving sometime down the road for a while, then be killed while in the service. I know people always say never date someone that did stuff behind the other person back, but for this girl and the way I felt I don't mind taking that risk. I do know that if it does happen to me.. I would not take her back.
Personally I've fallen in love twice before her. The first girl I lost her because I was being stupid and shy. The 2nd time I fell in love, we broke up because of few complicated things can't go into details. This time I felt something I haven't felt from any other girl in a long time. I've almost given up on trying to find anyone at all and just say fuck it, since most of the girls i've dated were bullshitting.
Till things happen between me this one. She feels really bad for all that has happen between us and that a reason why she barely talks to me right now. She didn't mean to lead me on at all. She texted me about 2 weeks later asking why things were so awkward between us, didn't respond because I wasn't sure what to say. Then a week after we she texted me again and said she couldn't get me out of her head and she wanted to see me. Did the same thing wasn't sure what to say but about 2-3 hours later I sent her a message.
Saying "How do I know your not lying"
She replayed with "I shouldn't have said anything, sorry I did. I just wanted to get it off my chest"
Me "It happens. You'll be fine..."
Her "Never said I wouldn't be fine. It just hard for me to not speak my mind and I've wanted to say something but I've kept it in. ugh"
Me "Your not the only one.. I say it might be much easier to say it in person, but that me"
her "well ive wanted to and still have stuff to say. Just haven't had the opportunity to. didn't think you wanted to see/talk to me."
Which at this point, I completely change the topic and ask her if she had and basket ball. Told her to come to the park.
We met up played a few games and talked like we use too.
Then as we were about to leave, there was literally a stand off for about 20-30 mins. Before she couldn't wait anymore and said are you going to kiss me or not.
Really at the same time when she text me that she wanted to see me, I was about to do the same thing and text her. But I knew I shouldn't. I really still can not get her out of my damn mind. I swear it like a flu or something.
I'm not sure what to do at all.. I want to be with her, but at the same time I don't because she does have the point that I'm leaving and I really wouldn't want her to worry about me. Nor do I really wanna worry about her, when I'm gone.
Any question or confusion about what I've said let me know I'll try to clear it up.