pseudonymn
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I am a university teacher and have long holidays. At the end of the intensive work period, sometimes I feel tired and there's a transition time, but I really got into a positive creative and social flow, this year, seeing friends a bit and working on projects pretty well. Then I went for 2 weeks to see my family of origin on another continent-there were lots of nice and fun moments but there was also some family stuff to work out-which went really well-but which was draining. Then a few days after getting back I went on a 2 1/2 seaside roadtrip with my boyfriend: exploring the coast of another country. a bit bumpy to start, but we got into a nice connected flow by the end.
I've been back for 2 or 3 weeks and I've been feeling depressed since then. Classes don't start til October. I try seeing friends, but for the most part I don't feel a deep or easy connection-kind of going through the motions. I joke around, but I feel unfulfilled, often.
My boyfriend, who lives far, has come to see me on the weekends-but we're likely to skip this weekend so he can see his kids.
I am feeling lack of meaning in life. I sometimes really get into my work, but I find people a more motivating part of life and I'm having a hard time connecting in a way that feels fulfilling.
Example; this saturday, i have the option of meeting some friends for dinner after they do an intense sport which i didn't feel comfortable doing or meeting a couple of women friends (who are closer to one and other than to me) to go to a festival. i feel like in either one, i'll feel slightly or more on the outside. yet i know it's not good to stay alone either.
any ideas?
I've been back for 2 or 3 weeks and I've been feeling depressed since then. Classes don't start til October. I try seeing friends, but for the most part I don't feel a deep or easy connection-kind of going through the motions. I joke around, but I feel unfulfilled, often.
My boyfriend, who lives far, has come to see me on the weekends-but we're likely to skip this weekend so he can see his kids.
I am feeling lack of meaning in life. I sometimes really get into my work, but I find people a more motivating part of life and I'm having a hard time connecting in a way that feels fulfilling.
Example; this saturday, i have the option of meeting some friends for dinner after they do an intense sport which i didn't feel comfortable doing or meeting a couple of women friends (who are closer to one and other than to me) to go to a festival. i feel like in either one, i'll feel slightly or more on the outside. yet i know it's not good to stay alone either.
any ideas?