john smith
New member
...my symptoms are real? Here goes a long and complicated story...I'll give you the basics.
When I was a youth, a few years ago I picked up the habit of smoking, it is quite common in younger teens nowadays. Although I started, I also had the strength to give up, without any sort of help just pure will power. I believe that this triggered:
Panic attacks, anxiety attacks, hypochondria. I am constantly scared that I have some sort of illness and that I am going to die. The thing is no matter who's opinion I get, I know i should listen to and believe them but i don't.. I cannot convince myself that i am a natural healthy 17 year old no matter how hard I try! During this time I engaged in sexual intercourse with a girl, unfortunately the condom split and by the time I was aware I could not contact the girl, so I was left for four months completely and utterly ******** myself. Words cannot describe how scared I was, and during this I was always worrying about having cancer, due to the feeling of not being able to breathe whilst trying to sleep, a buzzing feeling, depersonalisation and feeling detached from myself. I feel that I have been emotionally strained from all this and I just want to go back to being my true self as I was in my younger years and not have to worry all the time! I feel to go back to smoking in the hope this will relax me! The slightest headache.. I have a brain tumour. A small dot of blood on tissue paper and i have a stomach problem? Two moles have appeared on my head also today, causing more grief and worrying. I JUST WANT IT ALL TO END! PLEASE HELP ME
Just thought I might add, if the symptoms were real.. I'd have lung problems, heart problems, asthma, h.i.v a bladder problem, an s.t.d and im going blind! ABSOLUTELY ******* RIDICULOUS, BUT I CAN'T FORCE MYSELF TO BELIEVE THAT IM OKAY!?!??!?!?!?!?!
Thank you, although I do not have the money for a psychologist or anyone such as that so what can I do! I engage in a hell of a lot of exercise, almost every day of the week. Over the period of the last month or two I have noticed an improvement, I am sleeping a lot better. But every now and again something will happen to make me start thinking about being ill? I'm not a lonely person, I have a good social life and find myself constantly trying to get out of the house. It's always there somewhere though!
Again anything you can do to advise me is greatly appreciated, and I cannot tell my mum and dad either they'll think I'm nuts!
When I was a youth, a few years ago I picked up the habit of smoking, it is quite common in younger teens nowadays. Although I started, I also had the strength to give up, without any sort of help just pure will power. I believe that this triggered:
Panic attacks, anxiety attacks, hypochondria. I am constantly scared that I have some sort of illness and that I am going to die. The thing is no matter who's opinion I get, I know i should listen to and believe them but i don't.. I cannot convince myself that i am a natural healthy 17 year old no matter how hard I try! During this time I engaged in sexual intercourse with a girl, unfortunately the condom split and by the time I was aware I could not contact the girl, so I was left for four months completely and utterly ******** myself. Words cannot describe how scared I was, and during this I was always worrying about having cancer, due to the feeling of not being able to breathe whilst trying to sleep, a buzzing feeling, depersonalisation and feeling detached from myself. I feel that I have been emotionally strained from all this and I just want to go back to being my true self as I was in my younger years and not have to worry all the time! I feel to go back to smoking in the hope this will relax me! The slightest headache.. I have a brain tumour. A small dot of blood on tissue paper and i have a stomach problem? Two moles have appeared on my head also today, causing more grief and worrying. I JUST WANT IT ALL TO END! PLEASE HELP ME
Just thought I might add, if the symptoms were real.. I'd have lung problems, heart problems, asthma, h.i.v a bladder problem, an s.t.d and im going blind! ABSOLUTELY ******* RIDICULOUS, BUT I CAN'T FORCE MYSELF TO BELIEVE THAT IM OKAY!?!??!?!?!?!?!
Thank you, although I do not have the money for a psychologist or anyone such as that so what can I do! I engage in a hell of a lot of exercise, almost every day of the week. Over the period of the last month or two I have noticed an improvement, I am sleeping a lot better. But every now and again something will happen to make me start thinking about being ill? I'm not a lonely person, I have a good social life and find myself constantly trying to get out of the house. It's always there somewhere though!
Again anything you can do to advise me is greatly appreciated, and I cannot tell my mum and dad either they'll think I'm nuts!