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...again? Okay. I have OCD, Anxiety, and Depression. I'm 17 years old. And I've ALWAYS been guy CRAZY! Guys have ****** me over a lot though, mainly the guys that I go after. I've had and love sex with guys, 5 to be exact. None of them were with someone I was serious with, except one of them I had a lot of emotions towards and it was by far the BEST sex I've ever had. Since then I've never had sex that has compared to it and I'm scared I never will. I've never been in a REAL relationship because the guys I like usually don't like me back or screw me over and it leaves me heartbroken. So I'm emotionally scarred and I keep getting freaked out that I'm going to turn bi or gay, or that i'll never find love with a guy. I haven't had butterflies from a guy in awhile. I'm scared and I'm terrified. The reason I get scared that my sexuality will change from straight to bi or gay is mainly because I'm attracted to lesbian porn, but also straight porn and even gay porn a little. I feel like I'm a really sexual person and the reason I get turned on is because I love being pleasured and I love sex. I'm a girl so I know what it feels like when another girl is pleasured because I've been pleasured. But I know that I have no feelings for girls, and I don't want to act on it. It's just for masturbating and when I see porn. My therapist thinks that I'm straight, and the reason I'm scared is because of my OCD. I just want to be able to find a guy who will make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world. Some of my friends think it's normal to be attracted to lesbian porn, but still be straight. So, what do you guys think?