I have a hard time keeping up with those around me, my life is falling to pieces, my credit is forever damaged, I hate being around groups of people but want to be around them. I find I am happiest at home with my cats instead of the friends I have had for 15+ years. I forget things like electric bills and rent and so I am constantly behind on bills, making deals instead of just freakin paying them. I am not lazy, at work I am a go getter and bust my behind for the bosses. I make a decent wage but still live check to check.
I have only been in one relationship, and that lasted only 3 months. Since then I have shied away from women. I always dream of being with someone that I care for and vice versa, but for some reason I never try to date or get out.
It feels like I am slowly cutting my life off from Earth. Like I don't care...but I DO care. I dont get angry with myself or hurt myself physically or mentally, but more like I go into ultra numb mode and just let time slip away instead of working on improving myself.
I guess my real question is: Where can I get help with this? We have a hospital and a mental health clinic (somewhere), but I cannot afford to pay anyone else because I've had my wages garnished for the last 2 years and have tons to pay still.
Blah blah blah i know, we all have problems but this is getting to the point where I dont see a future worth living in...
I have only been in one relationship, and that lasted only 3 months. Since then I have shied away from women. I always dream of being with someone that I care for and vice versa, but for some reason I never try to date or get out.
It feels like I am slowly cutting my life off from Earth. Like I don't care...but I DO care. I dont get angry with myself or hurt myself physically or mentally, but more like I go into ultra numb mode and just let time slip away instead of working on improving myself.
I guess my real question is: Where can I get help with this? We have a hospital and a mental health clinic (somewhere), but I cannot afford to pay anyone else because I've had my wages garnished for the last 2 years and have tons to pay still.
Blah blah blah i know, we all have problems but this is getting to the point where I dont see a future worth living in...