something dreadful like that? Random rant, the majority of which doesn't pertain to the question, feel free to skip it, if you wish. -
Besides the horrible stigmas, are their any other repercussions to telling someone what is going on with me, to try and get help, like a school consoler or someone? If I were to say go to them with this, their would be no way my friends would find out right? I don't know, I really don't want anyone to find out, but things are going really horribly, and I don't know how much longer I can... I'm constantly self harming, I can't sleep, I don't really eat, I'm fixated on the idea of suicide, I've even unsuccessfully attempted it. I feel like I'm standing on the edge wavering at every slight breeze. And yet everyone believes me when I say I'm fine, I don't know if it's just because they don't really care, or I'm very good at hiding it, probably both. My condition seems terminal, like i'm hanging no to a ledge and everyday I lose a little more of my grip on it. I just want to feel better. I know I need help, but I'm so afraid to ask 4 it, i feel like i don't even deseve any, or that it would be really awful.
Besides the horrible stigmas, are their any other repercussions to telling someone what is going on with me, to try and get help, like a school consoler or someone? If I were to say go to them with this, their would be no way my friends would find out right? I don't know, I really don't want anyone to find out, but things are going really horribly, and I don't know how much longer I can... I'm constantly self harming, I can't sleep, I don't really eat, I'm fixated on the idea of suicide, I've even unsuccessfully attempted it. I feel like I'm standing on the edge wavering at every slight breeze. And yet everyone believes me when I say I'm fine, I don't know if it's just because they don't really care, or I'm very good at hiding it, probably both. My condition seems terminal, like i'm hanging no to a ledge and everyday I lose a little more of my grip on it. I just want to feel better. I know I need help, but I'm so afraid to ask 4 it, i feel like i don't even deseve any, or that it would be really awful.