Marovingian
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I have a chronic fear of aging. It's almost an irrational fear. I think of it everyday. Almost every hour. I'm almost 21 and I don't know where my life has gone. I'm so old already. In 19 years I'll be 40. I am not afraid of death, but rather, being old, dull, ugly and unhealthy. I have very carefully considered committing suicide before I turn 30, because I don't want to live past that age. Being an adult sucks, and I'd rather just be forever young. I'm not afraid to die, and it seems to be a better alternative than being a wrinkly old slobbering vegetable in a senior home.