It was all yellow
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This is a long story, so I'm going to just try and keep it as short and as simple as possible.
I really like this girl who lives in my dorms. She's a good friend of mine but she doesn't know I'm a lesbian. I haven't told her because when I first met her, I didn't know her thoughts on being gay so I wasn't sure I should say anything. However, as time passed, I realized not only is she okay with it, but she loves being with girls too. I have no idea if she is bisexual or not, because I know she likes boys but I also know she likes "being" with girls. I just don't know if she has ever been in an actual relationship with one. She's kissed me a couple of times out of the blue but those were just because she's just one of those super comfortable girls and very spontaneous.
The reason why I haven't told her I'm into girls, is because by the time I realized she is okay with it, she already believed I liked guys. I know I should have just said it a long time ago, but I didn't. Now I just feel like everytime she talks about a guy with me, I'm just spewing out lies. I'm tired of it and I just want to be honest with her.
I am not especting this to have a movie ending, where she tells me she feels the same way and we live happily ever after haha. I am not expecting anything at all, in fact. I just want her to know, I want to be honest for once. I think just having her acknowledge it will give me some peace because right now it's always on my mind.
The issue? Recently, this guy we both know came over to the dorms while we were having a party. We all had a little bit too much to drink that night and she ends up making out with the guy. He stayed the night in her dorm but they never did anything other than make out. Now, the thing is, the guy has a girlfriend. The next morning, my friend felt terrible and really guilty but she can't help but like the guy. She refuses to do anything else with him while he is with his girlfriend even though he keeps insisting. He doesn't feel bad about it at all which makes me think he really never cared about his girflriend. However, the girl I like still wants to see him and hang out with him, even though she knows she can't do anything while he is with the other girl. She is developing a crush on him because of that time they made out and he obviously is attracted to her as well. This only happened about a week ago.
I've been wanting to tell her how I feel for about a month now but I am just waiting for the right time when we are both alone. Then this guy came into the picture, and I don't think she really has feelings for him, she just doesn't like being single. However, I don't know for sure.
Do you think I should still say something to her before I lose my chance to that guy? Or should I not say anything at all?
I'm at a loss. Any advice would be GREATLY appreciated. Thank you!
(We are both 20, if that helps)
I really like this girl who lives in my dorms. She's a good friend of mine but she doesn't know I'm a lesbian. I haven't told her because when I first met her, I didn't know her thoughts on being gay so I wasn't sure I should say anything. However, as time passed, I realized not only is she okay with it, but she loves being with girls too. I have no idea if she is bisexual or not, because I know she likes boys but I also know she likes "being" with girls. I just don't know if she has ever been in an actual relationship with one. She's kissed me a couple of times out of the blue but those were just because she's just one of those super comfortable girls and very spontaneous.
The reason why I haven't told her I'm into girls, is because by the time I realized she is okay with it, she already believed I liked guys. I know I should have just said it a long time ago, but I didn't. Now I just feel like everytime she talks about a guy with me, I'm just spewing out lies. I'm tired of it and I just want to be honest with her.
I am not especting this to have a movie ending, where she tells me she feels the same way and we live happily ever after haha. I am not expecting anything at all, in fact. I just want her to know, I want to be honest for once. I think just having her acknowledge it will give me some peace because right now it's always on my mind.
The issue? Recently, this guy we both know came over to the dorms while we were having a party. We all had a little bit too much to drink that night and she ends up making out with the guy. He stayed the night in her dorm but they never did anything other than make out. Now, the thing is, the guy has a girlfriend. The next morning, my friend felt terrible and really guilty but she can't help but like the guy. She refuses to do anything else with him while he is with his girlfriend even though he keeps insisting. He doesn't feel bad about it at all which makes me think he really never cared about his girflriend. However, the girl I like still wants to see him and hang out with him, even though she knows she can't do anything while he is with the other girl. She is developing a crush on him because of that time they made out and he obviously is attracted to her as well. This only happened about a week ago.
I've been wanting to tell her how I feel for about a month now but I am just waiting for the right time when we are both alone. Then this guy came into the picture, and I don't think she really has feelings for him, she just doesn't like being single. However, I don't know for sure.
Do you think I should still say something to her before I lose my chance to that guy? Or should I not say anything at all?
I'm at a loss. Any advice would be GREATLY appreciated. Thank you!
(We are both 20, if that helps)