StupidLittleBoy
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I keep reassuring myself that my life will be renewed and I'll be able to start all over once I get into college (I'm currently a senior), but I feel so bad right now because I have told people things that I probably shouldn't have about my past. I was homosexually molested, was schizophrenic, depressed, sold drugs and was an alcoholic for a while, and have experienced so many deaths of close relatives that I have grown to be numb and apathetic of other people's emotions.
Whenever I make a new friend with whom I hang out with and become close with, rumors about me spreads like wildfire about me being weird and he/she stop hanging out with me or talking so much with me. One friend who knew the name of my other personality would always tease me about him and ask me if I was him or not and when other people who hear him call me by another name would ask him and he would tell them. He says it in a joking way, but everyone believes him.
I don't know what to do. There is so much bad talk about me going around the school and the worst part is most of them are probably true. Whenever I do go out with friends now, I'm the one who sits in the back of the car or corner of the table and doesn't say anything because they are afraid I might say something extremely weird or awkward. I no longer know how to act "normally" in front of others or have a conversation without it leading to something awkward.
What do I do?
Whenever I make a new friend with whom I hang out with and become close with, rumors about me spreads like wildfire about me being weird and he/she stop hanging out with me or talking so much with me. One friend who knew the name of my other personality would always tease me about him and ask me if I was him or not and when other people who hear him call me by another name would ask him and he would tell them. He says it in a joking way, but everyone believes him.
I don't know what to do. There is so much bad talk about me going around the school and the worst part is most of them are probably true. Whenever I do go out with friends now, I'm the one who sits in the back of the car or corner of the table and doesn't say anything because they are afraid I might say something extremely weird or awkward. I no longer know how to act "normally" in front of others or have a conversation without it leading to something awkward.
What do I do?