I try to reach out to people and I get burned..I keep being hurt abd brought down...no matter
how I try people keep hurting me...even the people I trust betray me..I feel so hurt
when I try to get close to someone they blow me off and then when i try to talk abotu it
I am brandished for it...i can't take this life anymore i don't think I deserve it...i can't handle it anymore
When people see me they don't say hi, they pretend they don't waiting for me to say it first...like they
trying to walk over me...they are cold and mean and only have nasty things to say...i am not a bad person...but the shit I have been through ahs really broken me...my step father and family has done me a lot of wicked....as well as others on the outside...i am trying to be good and do good, but from teh bottom of my heart i am tired of being a good peron...I read God's word and I want to believe
but the more I pray the mroe I feel like I am lost sometimes Like i am not doing enough...my mon says my life can make a 360 turn and people keep saying all these things that are happening are happening for a reason...the onyl time people don't brandish me is when i don't complain....but no one tries to help me when i am down...they are onyl around when things are well and that hurts...i want people to be with me even when the cards are down...i stay by myself most of the time because i am tired of being hurt and rejected I wouldn't wish this on anyone else and I don't want to experiene the loneliness anymore...people sya talk to god but I think god things i murmur to much...i am just asking for some help and no negative berating comments...i ahte when people try to bring you down when you are down already...i just wnat my life to turn for the better not the worst I try not to compalin but sometiems it hurts so much that i have to vent it all out...I am tired ofbeing rejected and ending up alone...i have to always pretend that i feel and am better than i really am...i am really hurting inside and i am trying to be good to people in a world that lacks so much manners...and no people will be people comments it dosen't help at the end of the day...i won't pray what is heppenign to me on anyone....people rarely come to me unless they want to put their problems on me and they tell me to open up and then brandish me i.e. my mother people i use to call friends...i have no friends by the way...result of rejection and being misunderstood....peole are constantly and not just a few, everyone making judgements abotu my life and they don't even know me...i guess what i am sayign is i would like my life and to be healthy, but also healthy and happy and have the ability to be this way and enjoy my life to the fullest while experiencing closeness with God and people who will love and appreciate me..i guess i want to know how do i achieve this life and how do i meet these people and get rid of those wicked ones
how I try people keep hurting me...even the people I trust betray me..I feel so hurt
when I try to get close to someone they blow me off and then when i try to talk abotu it
I am brandished for it...i can't take this life anymore i don't think I deserve it...i can't handle it anymore
When people see me they don't say hi, they pretend they don't waiting for me to say it first...like they
trying to walk over me...they are cold and mean and only have nasty things to say...i am not a bad person...but the shit I have been through ahs really broken me...my step father and family has done me a lot of wicked....as well as others on the outside...i am trying to be good and do good, but from teh bottom of my heart i am tired of being a good peron...I read God's word and I want to believe
but the more I pray the mroe I feel like I am lost sometimes Like i am not doing enough...my mon says my life can make a 360 turn and people keep saying all these things that are happening are happening for a reason...the onyl time people don't brandish me is when i don't complain....but no one tries to help me when i am down...they are onyl around when things are well and that hurts...i want people to be with me even when the cards are down...i stay by myself most of the time because i am tired of being hurt and rejected I wouldn't wish this on anyone else and I don't want to experiene the loneliness anymore...people sya talk to god but I think god things i murmur to much...i am just asking for some help and no negative berating comments...i ahte when people try to bring you down when you are down already...i just wnat my life to turn for the better not the worst I try not to compalin but sometiems it hurts so much that i have to vent it all out...I am tired ofbeing rejected and ending up alone...i have to always pretend that i feel and am better than i really am...i am really hurting inside and i am trying to be good to people in a world that lacks so much manners...and no people will be people comments it dosen't help at the end of the day...i won't pray what is heppenign to me on anyone....people rarely come to me unless they want to put their problems on me and they tell me to open up and then brandish me i.e. my mother people i use to call friends...i have no friends by the way...result of rejection and being misunderstood....peole are constantly and not just a few, everyone making judgements abotu my life and they don't even know me...i guess what i am sayign is i would like my life and to be healthy, but also healthy and happy and have the ability to be this way and enjoy my life to the fullest while experiencing closeness with God and people who will love and appreciate me..i guess i want to know how do i achieve this life and how do i meet these people and get rid of those wicked ones