Noname Foryou
New member
For a few years now, I have absolutely hated the fact that I am a guy. It's felt completely wrong to me.
I seem to have more in common with my female friends than my male friends (when I had male friends), in fact I do not have a single male
friend any more (irl)
I am not sexually attracted to girls, and I am attracted to guys but I would never act on it as a guy.
I do not consider myself homosexual.
Being a guy makes me extremely depressed and I am considering comitting suicide.
I was thinking about getting a sexchange, but I still wouldn't be a real girl.
I'd just be a guy with implants and my dick cut off, plus, I don't want to be a guy for 20 years and then suddenly be a girl, plus,
I couldn't have children or any other normal things, and if I got into a proper relationship I would either have to tell my partner
that I used to be a guy, or they'd find out eventually because of how my body would be.
I wish I could grow up as a normal girl.
In case I haven't made it clear how big this is, whenever I see a picture of a girl, or think about my problem, I begin to get extremely
depressed and think about killing myself..
As for interests I like all the music that most girls like, and just about everything else.
Every time I think about this (pretty much 24/7) it just makes me more and more depressed, I'm actually crying right now writing
this thread.
Fortunately I have good friends who are helping me but I'm asking here in case anyone here has had similar
experiences and can offer any advice.
According to one of my friends, full body transplant should be possible by 2020, would this be possible (and legal, although I'm not
too concerned about that as long as I can be happy)?
I have hardly felt happy at all recently, as I type on my keyboard I look down at my fingers, I hate them.
When I talk, I hear my voice, I hate it. When I look in the mirror, I see myself, I hate it.
Not sure if this means anything, but when I dream at night I am always a girl in my dreams, and I have had many dreams where I commit
suicide.
Whenever I see a girl I think "wow you are so lucky why am I a guy"..
It's only in the past couple of weeks I have started telling friends about this, and for the most part they are very supportive and
try to help me, although a couple of people completely change the way they think about me and call me things such as "tranny fag",
which hurts
I have yet to tell anyone that I know in real life, or my parents.
I am 17 years old.
This has also affected other things, for example I haven't been to school or hardly been outside in almost two years, as I don't want
to go outside as a guy (no, I'm not going to crossdress-I also have problems worrying about what people think of me), my sleeping
is also messed up, if I manage to sleep at all it's usually from 11AM until 4PM or so.
I realise I may seem a bit weird, and I most definitely am, but I'd really appreciate it if anyone here can offer me some advice.
I seem to have more in common with my female friends than my male friends (when I had male friends), in fact I do not have a single male
friend any more (irl)
I am not sexually attracted to girls, and I am attracted to guys but I would never act on it as a guy.
I do not consider myself homosexual.
Being a guy makes me extremely depressed and I am considering comitting suicide.
I was thinking about getting a sexchange, but I still wouldn't be a real girl.
I'd just be a guy with implants and my dick cut off, plus, I don't want to be a guy for 20 years and then suddenly be a girl, plus,
I couldn't have children or any other normal things, and if I got into a proper relationship I would either have to tell my partner
that I used to be a guy, or they'd find out eventually because of how my body would be.
I wish I could grow up as a normal girl.
In case I haven't made it clear how big this is, whenever I see a picture of a girl, or think about my problem, I begin to get extremely
depressed and think about killing myself..
As for interests I like all the music that most girls like, and just about everything else.
Every time I think about this (pretty much 24/7) it just makes me more and more depressed, I'm actually crying right now writing
this thread.
Fortunately I have good friends who are helping me but I'm asking here in case anyone here has had similar
experiences and can offer any advice.
According to one of my friends, full body transplant should be possible by 2020, would this be possible (and legal, although I'm not
too concerned about that as long as I can be happy)?
I have hardly felt happy at all recently, as I type on my keyboard I look down at my fingers, I hate them.
When I talk, I hear my voice, I hate it. When I look in the mirror, I see myself, I hate it.
Not sure if this means anything, but when I dream at night I am always a girl in my dreams, and I have had many dreams where I commit
suicide.
Whenever I see a girl I think "wow you are so lucky why am I a guy"..
It's only in the past couple of weeks I have started telling friends about this, and for the most part they are very supportive and
try to help me, although a couple of people completely change the way they think about me and call me things such as "tranny fag",
which hurts
I have yet to tell anyone that I know in real life, or my parents.
I am 17 years old.
This has also affected other things, for example I haven't been to school or hardly been outside in almost two years, as I don't want
to go outside as a guy (no, I'm not going to crossdress-I also have problems worrying about what people think of me), my sleeping
is also messed up, if I manage to sleep at all it's usually from 11AM until 4PM or so.
I realise I may seem a bit weird, and I most definitely am, but I'd really appreciate it if anyone here can offer me some advice.