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ScaredandConfused
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gone downhill. What should I do? For many years I felt an extreme attraction for my best friend. We were always physically comfortable with each other, and I found myself wanting to be close to her all the time. It came to the point where I knew that I was in love with her, and it was painful to keep it to myself. I ended up telling her...I'm not sure if it was because of my need for someone to know or if I thought there was a slight chance that she felt the same way (over the years she gave off indications that she might have these feelings...in example she wanted to show me how this one guy kissed her...so she kissed me). When I first told her she was so nice about it. She told me that everything was going to be okay, but it was hard for her to understand.
A dark period followed my admission to her. I was ashamed, so I acted differently around her, and things all together were different. In my pain and anguish I started dating this guy that I sort of liked, but was really just a distraction. My best friend hated this, and couldn't even be around when we were together. She has always reacted this way when I have boyfriends.
Things started getting better after I dumped him, but now we are where we were not too long ago...barely talking. She brought up the fact that "nothing will ever be the same" and that she was on anti-depressants and going to the therapist over this...and honestly, I feel like she's angry with me. I'm so confused and conflicted.
Does anyone have any insight as to what's going on? Maybe something I'm being ignorant to? Should I just leave her alone?
A dark period followed my admission to her. I was ashamed, so I acted differently around her, and things all together were different. In my pain and anguish I started dating this guy that I sort of liked, but was really just a distraction. My best friend hated this, and couldn't even be around when we were together. She has always reacted this way when I have boyfriends.
Things started getting better after I dumped him, but now we are where we were not too long ago...barely talking. She brought up the fact that "nothing will ever be the same" and that she was on anti-depressants and going to the therapist over this...and honestly, I feel like she's angry with me. I'm so confused and conflicted.
Does anyone have any insight as to what's going on? Maybe something I'm being ignorant to? Should I just leave her alone?