I think i play sports just to escape the sad realityvof my life. am i depressed?

[John]

I am a black 16 year old (male)junior in high-school I play 3 sports at a varsity level (water polo,cross country and I'm.captain of the wrestling team). I think I just play sports to fill the void of all the things I've missed out on in my life and things I know I can't achieve at the moment. I think I'm really depressed or something like that but when I'm around my friends or doing something active I feel perfectly fine. It's only when I'm alone I start looking back and ask questions like why am I so unlucky with girls. I've never had sex kissed a girl been on a date or anything close to anything more than "just friends". That's something that just really bums me out because I'm sure that I'm the only person In my school that hasn't done well anything with a girl. Another thing I ask my self is what if I didn't play sports/be muscular would I be getting picked on and pushed around like I was before I was a sophomore (I've been bullied for a long time in grade school and my freshman year before I started playing sports). All this leads me to the conclusion that I just play sports to escape the reality of my pitiful existence on this world. Can.anyone help me?