By emotional feeling, I'm assuming you mean in a more than buddy kind of way. That would mean you are gay. Fear of gay sex could just mean you are either still in a phase of sexual confusion or you just may not like sex. Some people don't.
Also, here are some resources that you might find handy.
And no, it's not a "gay" church. It's a "doesn't matter what the hell you are" church. The site can answer a lot of conflicts within your religous self.
Do you look down at you're little peepee and think "Gee, I could imagine putting one of those things in my mouth!" If so, you're gay. If not, you're not gay. SIMPLE!!!
Uber is right there is a deeper level of understanding due to commonality.
You said girls are scared of "seeing more" what were you referring to? And then "guys just words don't exist for it" is there a word missing? Sorry, not trying to be dense but your sentence construction is a bit perplexing.
So you're physically attracted to women but don't find them emotionally engaging? You'd rather hang out with guys? You sound like every straight man I know. It's called being an insensitive clod. Welcome to the the fraternity.