...realtionship 
? The thing is that I haven't had so much sex. Im 23 now. Before, the years that I should've lived my life 15-16 up till now, I was always in depression, mood swings, a lot of stuff that was interfering directly with my social life, so basically I didn't have much social life, not to speak for any girlfriend. My sexual life was the porn. (an addict now but getting better as stopped it long ago). So until now 23 I couldn't enjoy sex so much, my brain was totally bugged, senseless etc. complex thing. Now I have the chance to feel again and I'm going on the surface on being really happy and feeling everything. I have this barrier however that didn't have sex with many girls, and I want to explore like a little child , everything wth a lot of girls. I just need sex a lot and to explore. And when I have a gf now, I'm stuck with it and I can't cheat, no matter she also brings happiness and I feel sexual pleasure with her, I still have this that while with her, can't explore and can't do what I want. And this is getting deeper...it's eating me. Do you think I can explore my brain and remove this barrier or should I just break with my gf and do what I think will make me happy(I don't really believe it will...). And I'm totally confused, I know it's not the right think do to and I'll never find treal happiness there but, it's something like a huge gap in my brain that needs to be filled, like a virus that's spreading. It's awful
? The thing is that I haven't had so much sex. Im 23 now. Before, the years that I should've lived my life 15-16 up till now, I was always in depression, mood swings, a lot of stuff that was interfering directly with my social life, so basically I didn't have much social life, not to speak for any girlfriend. My sexual life was the porn. (an addict now but getting better as stopped it long ago). So until now 23 I couldn't enjoy sex so much, my brain was totally bugged, senseless etc. complex thing. Now I have the chance to feel again and I'm going on the surface on being really happy and feeling everything. I have this barrier however that didn't have sex with many girls, and I want to explore like a little child , everything wth a lot of girls. I just need sex a lot and to explore. And when I have a gf now, I'm stuck with it and I can't cheat, no matter she also brings happiness and I feel sexual pleasure with her, I still have this that while with her, can't explore and can't do what I want. And this is getting deeper...it's eating me. Do you think I can explore my brain and remove this barrier or should I just break with my gf and do what I think will make me happy(I don't really believe it will...). And I'm totally confused, I know it's not the right think do to and I'll never find treal happiness there but, it's something like a huge gap in my brain that needs to be filled, like a virus that's spreading. It's awful