to call to get me into counseling and possibly see a psychiatrist (that how the doctor put it), i dont know if she will follow through and call though because she sees it as me being crazy, and she says she doesnt have any crazy kids.
and it freaks me out that the doctor told her to take me to the ER if i want to cut, even if she doesnt do that im bound to get nagged and punished (just like when she first found out i was cutting by the school she will probably take away my laptop, and knifes, and ignore what happened)
now im anxious because i dont think i could tell her if i want to cut and if she does follow up and call the number i dont know whats gonna happen so im uneasy about it
PS, i dont want to cut right now, i figure that can wait for what is likely to be a very depressing next week, im seem to be cycling through depression, anxiety, a mix, or feeling happy and anxious.
and it freaks me out that the doctor told her to take me to the ER if i want to cut, even if she doesnt do that im bound to get nagged and punished (just like when she first found out i was cutting by the school she will probably take away my laptop, and knifes, and ignore what happened)
now im anxious because i dont think i could tell her if i want to cut and if she does follow up and call the number i dont know whats gonna happen so im uneasy about it
PS, i dont want to cut right now, i figure that can wait for what is likely to be a very depressing next week, im seem to be cycling through depression, anxiety, a mix, or feeling happy and anxious.